Hearts are broken. Ashes settled.
Might as well make a statement for closure. I am Siku. Ahsatan is talking about me. I left and changed names to avoid hurting a few people for very real reasons. End justifying the means. Not because i was being secretive or melodramatic. A certain mod here can even vouch for me if need be. The woman those messages I left for, I had to do it on here because she's avoided me everywhere else.
Crucify me. Whatever helps settle all this. Too tired of trying to get through to everyone and the world in order for them to see clearly. To see the potential I see. I love you all! But the universe is intent on making me look evil and plotting. Always.
Comes with the territory. So please. Just end me already. I have no hope anywhere or with anyone anymore.
EVERYONE. Stop seeing each other so wrongly and with half open eyes... Please... While I'm just here wanting to be seen for who I am in order to be heard. Seeking sanity admist insanity. Tired of having to deal with the opposite. Constantly.
Waiting for the next curveball the universe has to throw at me so I can burden the pain, hurt myself, rise, and explain myself again. The cycle.
My primary drive for this explaination is to get through to my love... Everyone else can hate me or see me as they want anymore.