cheaptrickfan said:
Lonesome Crow said:
cheaptrickfan said:
I really can't believe some of what I have read today. Clueless. Completely ******* clueless.
well...dear, Playboys aren't made for reading
Never mind. It's not worth sending my blood pressure through the roof.
*CTF goes to her Happy Place.*
Can I go too?
Seriously though.....
So Michelle asked me to pray for Jordan, today.
And this is what ran across my mind....
1, I stopped praying a couple years ago.
2, I promise myself I would do anything Michelle ask of me to make things right between her and I.
3, I remember putting a gun to my head. Darkess surrounded me. I had nothing left to live for. Then a saw a little spec of light.
It was the love I have for Jordan that stopped me from pulling the trigger. So god fucken help me that someday..perhaps someday somehow.
I was totally clusless of what to become of me. I told god if there is a god...take my life and do as you please with it becuase I'm fucken done...
4, I remember sneaking into the hospital the day Jordan was born. I took her out of the nusery and held her for the first time. It was the happiest
moment of my life. I took Jordan to Michelle and laid Jordan into Michelle's arm. I saw the tears run down Michelle's eyes. For a while just for a while
there was love and peace..Then her fucken mother walks in....
5, I remember getting on my knees everyday praying and asking for help. "dear god....please help me. Please help me keep my family together, no matter
what happens please don't take Michelle and Jordan away from me...I'd do anything..but you gatta help me becuase I don't know what to do"
6, I remember holding Jordan as tight as I can, while Michelle and I were arguing. For some reason I felt it was going to be the last time I hold my daughter....for a while.
7, I remember visiting Jordan while Michelle and I were seperated. I remember Michelle showing how to change a baby's diapers. I remember Michelle leaning back into me
so that I can hold her.. Then her fucken mother walks in....
8, I remember that last conversation I had with Michelle's mother. I told her....whatever the fresia hates she has for me...she best get a grip and fucken get over it.
For Jordan is my daughter and she'll look just like me and Jordan will be a constant reminder of me. On top of that Jordan will have my bloode and make her life a fucken living
hell. There's a part of me in Jordan that's more than skin deep.
9. Michelle say Jordan acts just like me