I envy my sister, she's 13 but she looks like an 18 year old attractive model...her looks are flawless (hah her personality though...angriest most violent bitch you'll ever meet), I'm 20 and I look like miserable ****. Man, how can a 13 year old be as sexy as they could possibly be and me being a 20 year old...I'm so dull and invisible and disgustingly hideous. Blah I know appearance doesn't matter, stupid society, stupid pressure to be pretty or else you don't deserve to be happy but I KNOW BETTER...just because you're not attractive doesn't mean you can't be happy yadda yadda I know that but I still wish I was comfortable in my own skin no matter how I'm like. Blah. Yeah, being comfortable in one's skin is what truly matters but I'm definitely not comfortable in my silly silly body. Oh my silly silly mind with its silly silly horrible thoughts...******* depression I ******* hate it.
I always wish I could hide from the entire world and just live alone, completely alone...so I could ruin myself, destroy my life without anyone ever knowing..nobody would ever be able to stop me. Ah, there's the negativity talking again! Blah blah blah, CHEER UP...cheer the **** up. Yes, I'll go watch something funny or listen to great music and then I'll laugh and I'll be happy...oh yes I'll forget that I'm still rotting.
Stupid mood swings, stupid thoughts, stupid emotions...I bet that in 1 hour I'll be fine.