Doubt The Rabbit said:
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Today .. . oh god,
First half of the day was good . . then i don't know what happened.
Even if everyone else disagrees, I still think i'm a failure lol,
And I wish I could fix that,
But my metaphorical tank of positivity is on empty,
I don't know how to fill it up, or to combat this negativity and depression,
I tried getting high . . **** that, does nothing.
Wish I would just stop . . but sometimes life is just too unbearable,
But there's definitely days that I don't need it . . today was one of 'em.
So many things I regret . . ****** up so much . . and i'm sorry
I just want everything to **** off . . but it doesn't
Cutting doesn't do **** anymore . . too afraid to cut deep, i can't kill myself . . . I give it like another year . . . then we'll see.
I don't know . . if I had the choice to just die right now . .
Would I take it?
There's just so much unresolved stuff . . there's a few things I still wanna do . . but I don't even know if i'll ever get the chance.
AGH . . for a bit i was over you . . but now . .
I hate this,
There really is no point saying anything,
Eventually i'll just disappoint/**** up/let everyone down cause i'm just selfish and afraid and unsure of everything.
But I still wish you'd talk to me
I hate initiating the conversation, it seems ..idk,
It's more meaningful when you message me first.
Or I could just forget about it . . i really really should.