meekthoughts
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I'm thinking that I should stop hanging around this forum and study for my midterm tomorrow for which all the relevant knowledge I have accumulated in the past few weeks are seeping out of my brain. I am also thinking about what people really think of me in real life and if I seem as awkward and boring as I see myself. I'm thinking that I should go to sleep or else I might be too sleepy to write the test, but then I should use this time to study so that I feel more prepared tomorrow.
Speaking of the test, it is a chemistry test and every time I think about chemistry I think about how I don't seem to have any chemistry with any of the guys I've met and I think I might end up partner-less for the rest of my life. And then I think about that one time where I was really close to a guy but he was in a relationship and I can't believe that I almost became the "other woman" and am glad that it didn't progress any further past a normal friendship with feelings. I wonder what makes me attracted to a certain person. I see a pattern in that they are usually relatively quiet and seem to be sweet/kind even if in a subtle way. I wonder what is one their minds, and if it is actually completely opposite to how they seem to me.
And now I'm back to thinking that I should stop typing and go back to studying for real now, since studying has pretty much been my life for a long time now. I hope nobody reads this since it is embarrassing, but at the same time that defeats the purpose of writing in a forum.
Speaking of the test, it is a chemistry test and every time I think about chemistry I think about how I don't seem to have any chemistry with any of the guys I've met and I think I might end up partner-less for the rest of my life. And then I think about that one time where I was really close to a guy but he was in a relationship and I can't believe that I almost became the "other woman" and am glad that it didn't progress any further past a normal friendship with feelings. I wonder what makes me attracted to a certain person. I see a pattern in that they are usually relatively quiet and seem to be sweet/kind even if in a subtle way. I wonder what is one their minds, and if it is actually completely opposite to how they seem to me.
And now I'm back to thinking that I should stop typing and go back to studying for real now, since studying has pretty much been my life for a long time now. I hope nobody reads this since it is embarrassing, but at the same time that defeats the purpose of writing in a forum.
