I think you're the biggest contradiction. It doesn't just happen half the time. Sometimes, it eventually happens. Sometimes, you'll see what you don't have in any other area of your life in them. I would comment on what you said to me, but I'll leave it be, lest you think I'm just being rude and negative. Really though, I know what it's like from both sides. I think you're so desperate that you won't even see reason to your thoughts.