What are you thinking right now?

[147]

I'm wondering why the idea of NOT being afraid anymore feels more scary to me than my regular anxiety.
Do we really think that living in a state of waiting for the next bad thing to happen is actually going to soften that blow (IF it even happens)? It's still going to suck, no matter what. Might as well be light-hearted in the meantime.

 

[ardour]

The Tyson vs Paul fight. After all the build up, what a farce and a cash grab. Tyson looked like he could barely stand and didn't even try. Shouldn't be allowed to happen.

 

[okidoke]

The Tyson vs Paul fight. After all the build up, what a farce and a cash grab. Tyson looked like he could barely stand and didn't even try. Shouldn't be allowed to happen.

I didn’t watch it, but wasn’t it all for charity?

 

[ardour]

I didn’t watch it, but wasn’t it all for charity?

Jake made 40 million, Mike 20 million.

 

[okidoke]

Jake made 40 million, Mike 20 million.

In their pocket or for charity though?

 

[ardour]

In their pocket or for charity though?

Doubtful. Tyson's been bankrupt and is suffering chronic health conditions, and Jake Paul's a scummy youtuber...

 

[ardour]

I've been persisting with the meetup events lately, pretty much forcing myself to go. Noticing would could be interest from younger women at these events. (Late 20s onwards.) They'll ask personal questions I'm not used to. Sometimes it seems like they're trying to figure out my age without asking directly.

And once that cat is out of the bag the interest is gone.

I don't feel any bitterness towards them. Why should they date a middle-aged man? Common sense suggests I would be a less than ideal choice to have kids with and no-one wants to be stuck with a geriatric in the future, not when they are still relatively young themselves and want someone to be physically active with.

It's just depressing in how it confirms what I already knew: regardless of physically passing for younger, time's up. Realistically it was just about up ten years ago. 'Self-improved' 20 years too late. It's like the premise for a black comedy.

 

[Unsigned]

Jake made 40 million, Mike 20 million.

And just think what they made with the betting...

 

[okidoke]

I've been persisting with the meetup events lately, pretty much forcing myself to go. Noticing would could be interest from younger women at these events. (Late 20s onwards.) They'll ask personal questions I'm not used to. Sometimes it seems like they're trying to figure out my age without asking directly.

And once that cat is out of the bag the interest is gone.

I don't feel any bitterness towards them. Why should they date a middle-aged man? Common sense suggests I would be a less than ideal choice to have kids with and no-one wants to be stuck with a geriatric in the future, not when they are still relatively young themselves and want someone to be physically active with.

It's just depressing in how it confirms what I already knew: regardless of physically passing for younger, time's up. Realistically it was just about up ten years ago. 'Self-improved' 20 years too late. It's like the premise for a black comedy.

Well get with the program man and forget about younger women already.

 

[ardour]

Well get with the program man and forget about younger women already.

Eh... not gonna happen. Dating an averagely experienced woman my age feels like teenaged boy me hooking up with his school teacher. Mentioned it before but I've been to the 'age appropriate' meetups with mostly divorcees and it was very uncomfortable.

 

[okidoke]

Eh... not gonna happen. Dating an averagely experienced woman my age feels like teenaged boy me hooking up with his school teacher. Mentioned it before but I've been to the 'age appropriate' meetups with mostly divorcees and it was very uncomfortable.

And I think I’ve mentioned before that this is a problem in YOUR head and there’s no point going on about it. You either sort out your conditioned thinking or stop whining about it. You have to work on it, like a phobia or an addiction.