I really hate all these passive-aggressive comments (IRL, not here).
It's like sandpaper on my nerves. It's really starting to piss me the **** off.
Also what's pissing me the **** off, is that I feel like I have no time to understand myself or find myself. I feel like I'm stuck on a trajectory to be a boring, unattractive person, and there's nothing I can do about it - either because I don't have time to find myself and figure out how to get a different life, or because I wouldn't be able to do it anyway because I don't have enough/any natural talent, or an unconventional enough mind, to NOT be boring and unattractive.