What were you like when you were a kid?

[Naleena]

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Here is a hug for you, little one : ) You do not go unoticed here! Thank you for being so open and sharing with us.

 

[evanescencefan91]

*gives ghostnyourmit a big hug*
you're a good guy

 

[wannadie]

Sorry to hear these stories. (((((((((((((((((((((((A big Hug for Naleena))))))))))))))))))))))))))) And every one who has suffered like this.

Well, I was a very shy kid. Lonely, nobody to play with, nobody to talk to. Parents were alwas busy with something. Not that I blame them, they had to earn money. Like some of you even I used to have only 2-3 pairs of jeans and couple of t-shirts given by someone on my birthdays. I used to wait eagerly for that day. People at school used laugh at me. This continued till I was done with college. Only differnce is, in college I had 5 pairs of jeans and t-shirts instead of 2. I was a very hard workig, sincere student. Never got in trouble for anything. People either didn't like me for whatever reason or they were jealous of me for being a bright student. Now I'm a working woman, but if I go shopping and buy something for myself then I feel guilty about having more than 5 pairs of cloths. Which I know is weird. If I do something for myself then I feel I'm doing something wrong, as if I don't deserve anything. I hope I'll be able to change myself one day.

 

[davechaos]

Through my counselling I have soent a lot of time thinking about my childhood...

One of the reasons I am where I am today is because of what my parents did for me and the way they brought me up, but of course the other reason why I am here is because of the way I was brought up.

Being the youngest I have always had this shadow over me...from both my elder brothers and it seems that I have stayed under that shadow for many many years...and through everything I have been through my loneliness and fear of rejection have stemmed from being under this shadow...as well as being rejected when I was younger...not maliciously...but in a way that I don't think anyone ever saw.

It is very difficult to explain as it has taken me weeks to get my head around all of this...and still am. If I tell you all that I have to start to live my life for me...as an individual...and get used to being me...that may well help you to see and understand.

I love being me...I love being the person I am...I just don't like being that person at times...and it is those times that I am trying to straighten out.

I know that there were very very fond memories of being a kid but I don't remember them. All I remember are the sorrowful and hard times.

 

[EveWasFramed]

Sorry to hear these stories. (((((((((((((((((((((((A big Hug for Naleena))))))))))))))))))))))))))) And every one who has suffered like this.

Well, I was a very shy kid. Lonely, nobody to play with, nobody to talk to. Parents were alwas busy with something. Not that I blame them, they had to earn money. Like some of you even I used to have only 2-3 pairs of jeans and couple of t-shirts given by someone on my birthdays. I used to wait eagerly for that day. People at school used laugh at me. This continued till I was done with college. Only differnce is, in college I had 5 pairs of jeans and t-shirts instead of 2. I was a very hard workig, sincere student. Never got in trouble for anything. People either didn't like me for whatever reason or they were jealous of me for being a bright student. Now I'm a working woman, but if I go shopping and buy something for myself then I feel guilty about having more than 5 pairs of cloths. Which I know is weird. If I do something for myself then I feel I'm doing something wrong, as if I don't deserve anything. I hope I'll be able to change myself one day.

Kids in school can be rotten little buggers sometimes, can't they? Their parents should teach them, early on, not to make fun of anyone less fortunate.

 

[loketron]

*bear hug for wannadie*
BTW thats a horrible name, you dont want to die, do you know what lucifers got in store for you if (heaven forbid) you meet him!?!
when i go half on a baby im definetly making sure those kids dont turn out as little *****
im gonna be wayyyy harsher than my parents were. but still end up being the cool dad all my kids friends think is.

 

[Fodderboy]

I was the fat kid... Other kids always wanted to beat me up, girls would dare eachother to come talk to me, or worse come sit by me... I spent lunch and recess hiding in classrooms so the other kids couldn't find me. You ever see that movie weatherman where every once and a while someone would just throw something at Nicholas Cage? That happened a lot, too...

 

[evanescencefan91]

i had an alright childhood, I played a lot of sports even though i was neververy good at them. Me and my friend who moved away would make bike ramps in his driveway, then we'd go down our street, which was medium sized hill turn in his driveway then land in his garage.

as a kid i was ussally pretty nice, but kinda whinny and impatient like a lot of kids, i still kinda am today. I never got into any serious trouble. i tried to be funny and i loved making people laugh, i was kinda an idoit, but i'm still the same. I guess i haven't grown up a whole lot, i'm still kinda young, i don't really feel like i've changed much, of course i had more hope and dreams and less apathy.

i've seemed to have built a wall of bricks in my mind, keeps me from really thinking and focusing about important things, i've been skimming the cliff notes of life, and pacing around everything else

 

[hawk9007]

i was really twisted when i was younger. did things that would make most people cry,and fear me. i was beyond a hell raiser, i was hell put on earth i was evil to the point whare i dont have skeletons in my closet, i have demons.......

 

[NeverMore]

I was really quiet and shy I wouldn't talk to anyone for weeks at a time, some times during the summer when I came back to school from break I remember I wouldn't talk very good and would sound really slow for a couple weeks or so because I hadn't talked for so long. I spent the majority of my time playing with legos or video games or building forts out of random stuff lol or playing with the cats on the farm. I also read a lot, I was obsessed with astronomy and learned everything I could about it, at one point I was 10 or so and I read this college textbook called Universe by kaufman

At school I didn't talk much I made friends with some people but never spoke to them outside of school, during recess I would swing by myself or work on my book about the solar system I was writing under a tree........I was a weird kid ....lol

 

[Qui]

i was really twisted when i was younger. did things that would make most people cry,and fear me. i was beyond a hell raiser, i was hell put on earth i was evil to the point whare i dont have skeletons in my closet, i have demons.......

you and I would have gotten along quite well. Although I was never too open about it, people where really afraid of me. Even if they didn't quite realize it themselves, it was more subconscious.

Of course, I never changed. I'm worse now than I ever was.
I'm twisted to the point where I scare myself.
I don't hurt anyone. I'm antiviolence. I'm a buddhist.
I've got a green thumb and meditate every day.
Even when I was little I've always been one of those people that wished for world peace every chance I got. Of course, if I had two wishes I'd ask to be happy too, so I guess I've always been selfish too. To thing I'd waste a wish, and that I never thought world peace would make me happy. It's sick, the way that I am. I'm disgusting.
No matter what I do to change it, I'm still a bad person. I just haven't figured out why.

 

[Irishdoll]

Very interesting thread. I haven't had much time to join the forums lately (due to life, but it's always there to interrupt us), but I had to post here before I head out. Hugs to everyone (we could always use a good hug).
As a kid, my life had it's ups and downs like most. I think the times I remember most are after my step-dad came into the picture. I was 5 years old. Before him, my first memory of my real dad was a visit to his house, where I was locked in the rest room, in the dark, for peeing my pants.
My step-dad, was a whole different story. I was sexually and physically abused by him for the next 6 years. I couldn't tell my mother, she has always been a little off her nut (in other words, quite crazy). Their arguements were always violent. I was the last to get clothes, unless my grandmother made them for me. I remember wearing cleats with holes in them to school one year, while my step-bro and step-sis got new shoes. Needless to say, I was a very quiet and shy child when it came to other adults. I got into my share of trouble, but for the most part, I would hang out with anyone who would accept me. I found out much later, sex does not equal love.
I guess you could definitely say that this is what had shaped most of my life. There have been so many bad moments and still they keep coming. I just keep telling myself that the good lord has a plan for me and all of the suffering I must endure is a part of it.
Well, enough about my horror stories. Chin up, BIG Smiles and Long hugs for everyone.

 

[investor]

In kindergarten I was picked on; My only friend was this black kid named Willy; In 1st grade thru 3rd grade my best friend was Denzel and we played basketball and celebrated each others birthdays. It wasn't bad even though I had no other friends because I always had 1 best friend. Then 3rd grade a had another best friend Joey till 7th grade. Then it all went downhill from there. My face broke out insanely till 12th grade. I never got a job b/c who would hire someone looking like me? Now im gonna be a junior in college and I have no friends.

 

[Bluey]

In kindergarten I was picked on; My only friend was this black kid named Willy; In 1st grade thru 3rd grade my best friend was Denzel and we played basketball and celebrated each others birthdays. It wasn't bad even though I had no other friends because I always had 1 best friend. Then 3rd grade a had another best friend Joey till 7th grade. Then it all went downhill from there. My face broke out insanely till 12th grade. I never got a job b/c who would hire someone looking like me? Now im gonna be a junior in college and I have no friends.

All you need is one best friend and it can make the world of difference this is true. Its what I would like even now I think.

Reading your post it appears to me that when your face broke out it did not do your confidence any good. If its spots you mean you can get somethings from the doctor to clear this up.

I think you might benefit from having moor confidence and looking a bit better might give you that. I would like you to start your own thread somewhere explaining this a bit moor You might be given some good advice.

Edit: I just read your Bio and see it was spots. I still think you should make a thread about this.

 

[Naleena]

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So good to see you again! It's amazing how some people can come out of the darkest situations and become such good people. BTW, that picture of you is absolutley gorgeous! Your such a beautiful woman Please stick around as much as you can and big hugs to you !!!!
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[investor]

In kindergarten I was picked on; My only friend was this black kid named Willy; In 1st grade thru 3rd grade my best friend was Denzel and we played basketball and celebrated each others birthdays. It wasn't bad even though I had no other friends because I always had 1 best friend. Then 3rd grade a had another best friend Joey till 7th grade. Then it all went downhill from there. My face broke out insanely till 12th grade. I never got a job b/c who would hire someone looking like me? Now im gonna be a junior in college and I have no friends.

All you need is one best friend and it can make the world of difference this is true. Its what I would like even now I think.

Reading your post it appears to me that when your face broke out it did not do your confidence any good. If its spots you mean you can get somethings from the doctor to clear this up.

I think you might benefit from having moor confidence and looking a bit better might give you that. I would like you to start your own thread somewhere explaining this a bit moor You might be given some good advice.

Edit: I just read your Bio and see it was spots. I still think you should make a thread about this.

I did clear it up and its not as bad as before but I still have no confidence. Also I'd like to repair it but I need around 3000 dollars and time to heal it- no sunlight. I think my confidence issue now is more because I've missed so many years of life that I can't relate to regular happy people. In fact, I cringe at the sight of happy people kinda and walk fast to avoid them. They make no effort to understand the plight of people like me and remain in their own materialistic dreamworld.

 

[Naleena]

In fact, I cringe at the sight of happy people kinda and walk fast to avoid them. They make no effort to understand the plight of people like me and remain in their own materialistic dreamworld.

How sad that most people do not realize that we are all connected. Investor, when you do reach your dreams and you do have the finances and other things you will work for, I am sure you will remember where you came from and have mercy on people that others pass by as though they don't exist. May we all take this to heart and take the time to actually see the human beings that pass by us each day. To know that they too have feelings and dreams and maybe they just might ned a smile or a kind word from us.

 

[Lost Soul]

Normal, lol. Well, more normal then now.

I was also weird. Because of my Asperger's, I would have obsessions and stuff. Like for example, every time I went into someone elses house, I would flush all the toilets in the house once. I laugh about that now. Weird fazes. I would put up a tantrum if I didn't get my way (common with kids with Aspergers). This was when I was very young, like under 10. If I went into a store and didn't get something I want, I would make a scene and my Dad would have to take me out to the car.

I was shy, like now, and a trouble maker, especially at school because the first couple years I didn't want to be there. I would do whatever I wanted to do, not all the time, but a lot. I got on the teachers nerves and I go sent home a lot. I settles down after a year or so. I had a Program Assistant all through Elementary and halfway through junior high. They are people with disabilities. In Elementary school, I had one by my desk all the time. I wasn't handicapped or nothing, but I had a learning disability and for the first year or so, I was a trouble maker.

Sometimes, still am, but I'm harmless. Sometimes I would pull pranks on people, but for laughs. At home, I was a loner I guess. I would hang out with my sister a lot, we used to be very close, we still are, but not like before. She has her own apartment now. I was mischievous, I think that was the word.

I wasn't all bad. Most of the time I was good. I was a loner but didn't feel lonely. Probably because I hung out with my sister a lot. I remember I always hung around older folks, and they liked me.I could always make them laugh. That's another common thing with kids with Asperger's

I was curious about a lot of things. My Dad is a realtor and has been since I was a very young. He would often bring me a long on trips to see houses and I would always check out the floor plan of the house. I always did that. I had a lot of obsessions and still do. It's always something. It was vacuum cleaners, fax machines etc. When I went to my grandmothers house, I had to sleep with the vacuum house. LOL. I don't know why. My obsessions have changed over the years, I don't do crazy stuff like that any more. I used to talk about things repeatedly and wore people down until last year, I started teaching myself not to do that. I would teach people everything there was to know about whatever my interest or obsession was.

I had an interesting childhood, definitely better then now. I wish I could go back to that.