Hello, everyone. 
My name is Elizabeth. I'm 23, although I've been married, divorced, and had a kid already so I'm really like..35.
I have a little boy named Jaxon who is almost 4, and he has been diagnosed with autism. (If you have any questions about autism, please let me know. ) Becoming a parent is simultaneously the most overwhelming and rewarding responsibility I’ve ever had to face. Having a person’s entire existence depend solely on me is exhausting. The knowledge that every tiny decision I make can impact and influence his life is frightening. The intensity of love I feel for my son is overpowering, and the fear that I might fail him someday is unbearable. His dad has absolutely nothing to do with us anymore (his girlfriend won't allow it) so all parental responsibilty falls on my shoulders alone.
I work for walmart.com right now, although I'm trying to figure out how I can put myself through college to become a pediatric nurse. (Who wouldn't want a job where they can stab little kids with needles all day long? ) Working and raising my son alone has resulted in me feeling very lonely. Friends my age don't understand the limited mobility that comes with having a kid (especially an autistic one) and it is incredibly difficult for me to find a babysitter that I trust to care for Jax. I end up spending a lot of time at home alone. I do find solace in my video games, books, and music, but nothing can replace the companionship with other people that I am missing so very much.
Anyway, I found this forum and have read for a few days, and I decided to take the plunge and say hi. I look forward to meeting you guys, and I'm sorry my introduction is so wordy. I have a bad habit of being grandiosely verbose sometimes.
Here is a picture of Jaxon and me.
My name is Elizabeth. I'm 23, although I've been married, divorced, and had a kid already so I'm really like..35. I have a little boy named Jaxon who is almost 4, and he has been diagnosed with autism. (If you have any questions about autism, please let me know.
) Becoming a parent is simultaneously the most overwhelming and rewarding responsibility I’ve ever had to face. Having a person’s entire existence depend solely on me is exhausting. The knowledge that every tiny decision I make can impact and influence his life is frightening. The intensity of love I feel for my son is overpowering, and the fear that I might fail him someday is unbearable. His dad has absolutely nothing to do with us anymore (his girlfriend won't allow it) so all parental responsibilty falls on my shoulders alone. I work for walmart.com right now, although I'm trying to figure out how I can put myself through college to become a pediatric nurse. (Who wouldn't want a job where they can stab little kids with needles all day long?
) Working and raising my son alone has resulted in me feeling very lonely. Friends my age don't understand the limited mobility that comes with having a kid (especially an autistic one) and it is incredibly difficult for me to find a babysitter that I trust to care for Jax. I end up spending a lot of time at home alone. I do find solace in my video games, books, and music, but nothing can replace the companionship with other people that I am missing so very much. Anyway, I found this forum and have read for a few days, and I decided to take the plunge and say hi.
I look forward to meeting you guys, and I'm sorry my introduction is so wordy. I have a bad habit of being grandiosely verbose sometimes. Here is a picture of Jaxon and me.
