I'm not gonna post my life story again, but in brief, for the last 3 years I've been alone. I've locked everyone out and it was working for a long time, I acted strong and fine, and spent time reading books, watching series and movies and playing video games. I cant take it anymore though. For about 7 months now, I've been extremely lonely.
I faced the fact I'm alone, that the friends I got barely care about me, and while we may go out for the ocassional drink, I'm more of a burden to them than good. They both have their studies, jobs and girls, and I'm a mess, I used to advice them and help them with girls and stuff in the past, now I'm in no mental condition to do so. I feel useless to them.
My family? They barely care if I'm alive, when I'm trying to talk to them, about anything, they are too busy and too tired for me.
So I wasted my life in video games. Found a community, found a group and spent days and months in it. Then me and a woman from there fell in love, broke up, and I left the community.
When I try to make friends, or at least interact with people, it feels like I'm an annoyance to them. 3 weeks ago my friends girl invited us out for her birthday. Me and my friend were the only men, and we were with 6 women. According to my friend's girl, they were all free, and 2 of them told her they like me. I tried to talk to them, no flirting, just casual chatting, but it felt like they replied to me just because they had to.
And that's how it feels everytime I try to make friends or just meet new people, so I just gave up
And I got nothing. I got no real friends. I have people to go out with once in a while, but it's completely temporary. I try to get my mind busy with stuff, cleaning and redecorating my room, cleaning my closet and getting rid of clothes etc, relaxing with music, trying to finish a book I started writing 4 years ago, but no matter what I do, something will remind me how alone I am.
So, this is a question to all of you, how do you cope with being alone and lonely?
Also, it's ironic how we're not alone on being alone
I faced the fact I'm alone, that the friends I got barely care about me, and while we may go out for the ocassional drink, I'm more of a burden to them than good. They both have their studies, jobs and girls, and I'm a mess, I used to advice them and help them with girls and stuff in the past, now I'm in no mental condition to do so. I feel useless to them.
My family? They barely care if I'm alive, when I'm trying to talk to them, about anything, they are too busy and too tired for me.
So I wasted my life in video games. Found a community, found a group and spent days and months in it. Then me and a woman from there fell in love, broke up, and I left the community.
When I try to make friends, or at least interact with people, it feels like I'm an annoyance to them. 3 weeks ago my friends girl invited us out for her birthday. Me and my friend were the only men, and we were with 6 women. According to my friend's girl, they were all free, and 2 of them told her they like me. I tried to talk to them, no flirting, just casual chatting, but it felt like they replied to me just because they had to.
And that's how it feels everytime I try to make friends or just meet new people, so I just gave up
And I got nothing. I got no real friends. I have people to go out with once in a while, but it's completely temporary. I try to get my mind busy with stuff, cleaning and redecorating my room, cleaning my closet and getting rid of clothes etc, relaxing with music, trying to finish a book I started writing 4 years ago, but no matter what I do, something will remind me how alone I am.
So, this is a question to all of you, how do you cope with being alone and lonely?
Also, it's ironic how we're not alone on being alone