I'm not sure. In a lot of ways i'm doing better. I have a great job, i have more people around me, etc etc. At the same time i still get very lonely, feels like more than back then. It's all on me and i'm aware of that. Somewhere along the way i lost most of the motivation to really make a difference. Now i get to it in short bursts and then just be absolutely useless. I feel like i have to do all of it alone, and have been doing so for years. That's probably the worst part.
What im scared of the most is that it'll be 2029 and i'll still be lonely and alone, at the end of the day all because of choices i made that i cant blame anyone else for, just more outwardly succesful and i guess more refined.
What im scared of the most is that it'll be 2029 and i'll still be lonely and alone, at the end of the day all because of choices i made that i cant blame anyone else for, just more outwardly succesful and i guess more refined.