Cataplasme
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I am not anymore but I lost my virginity quite late I guess (25) with my first boyfriend.
Before I often thought something was wrong with me, or I thought it was because I have so many body issues. I don't feel like I waited for the right one but I think I just needed to be comfortable enough with someone to actually have sex with this person. And I guess to be comfortable enough with a person I needed a strong connection and feelings. So maybe unconsciously I was.
He was even the first person I kissed... This is how physical contacts with others usually make me uncomfortable. I think I always unconsciously push other people away.
I still don't think if I would ever be able to have sex with someone I don't love anyway.
Before I often thought something was wrong with me, or I thought it was because I have so many body issues. I don't feel like I waited for the right one but I think I just needed to be comfortable enough with someone to actually have sex with this person. And I guess to be comfortable enough with a person I needed a strong connection and feelings. So maybe unconsciously I was.
He was even the first person I kissed... This is how physical contacts with others usually make me uncomfortable. I think I always unconsciously push other people away.
I still don't think if I would ever be able to have sex with someone I don't love anyway.