SilentSoul89
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ye it's easy to read things the wrong way when your desperately lonely. I had hope at this youth club but the more I'm there the more I feel resigned to being an outcast yet again. Most of them are in their 20s and already have established bonds. So when they have a free moment they just talk to each other. I try to make an effort with some of the newer ones like myself and I've had better conversation there. But with the paid staff I kinda feel left out when they laugh & joke with each other and they walk home togetherMissBehave said:I’m guessing that those comments that you got from your boss and that Irish girl is them being friendly. Not every sign of attention means that they like you in a romantically way. Over reading stuff can be very normal when you are lonely so it’s easy to do it.
I’m sorry for your bad day. I hope it gets better!️
ITellYouHhwut said:Do you want to fix the problem, or have you given up? Do you have resentment like alot of people in your situation, or do you think you could follow a path to fix things? Addressing these questions will help you figure out what track to be on.
The reason I ask is because I know that, for me, fixing things might actually be possible if I didn’t have the resentment built up. That is definitely one of the big things holding me down. Every time I think about me, for example, kissing a girl, or “enjoying the company” of a woman, my resentment just makes me enraged, because no girl has ever shown interest in me beforehand .
I definitely have a lot of resentment which I guess is inevitable when you've been lonely for so long. Simply browsing Facebook makes me so envious and despairing how other have loving families and friendships. I know Facebook paints a positive image of people but you can just tell that most people who post have their lives together. I'm 30 and all I do is volunteer at a youth club. I don't have a paid job, never had a girlfriend, no friends, don't drive and still live with my mum. Oh & I'm depressed and anxious, what a life eh?.
I've had positive feedback from this youth club which is encouraging and theres lots of social opportunities going but what goods that when I struggle with deep insecurities?. I actually stayed at a girls house last Monday and I regretted it. She was obese and had learning difficulties. We didn't have sex as such, she just did stuff to me. I've since blocked her as she kept asking me to go hers but she's not attractive at all. Anyway that's my update, it's been a while since I last posted :shy:..