My Writing Loft

[Equinox]

Lament (2009)

I always keep my distance
My solitude is clear
Always staying silent, making
sure no one gets near

In my mission I'm successful
People leave me be
They know I want my privacy
That friendship has a fee

When it comes to sharing
I don't have much to say
When someone tries to talk to me
I'll run before I'll stay

If someones tries to meet with me
I often say I have no time
Because of that I'm punished
'Cause lying is indeed a crime

If someone wants to hug me
I'll freeze or back away
For reasons that I can't explain
Affection won't display

But all these things are wrong
They're out of my control
It's not the way I want to be
When I look inside my soul

I'm not quite sure what happened
I wasn't always such a mess
I used to be so happy, but
Now I just obsess

A broken down chevvy
Stranded in the dirt
Abandoned, lost, forgotten
The bumper shields the hurt

A lone, free ranger
A soaring balloon in the sky
It's all well and good, until
the helium starts to dry

An orphan seeking a family
Wanting to atone
But I'm drowning in my solitude
I'm drowning all alone

 

[SophiaGrace]

you sound a bit uhm, avoidant. Any reason why you are like this that you can think of?

I like the poem.

 

[Thomas]]

I really liked it Equinox... (not what it conveys of course :<) but I feel like I get to know you a little bit through your writing... feels pretty emotional.

You're not alone ! Everyone is 'alone' in their own way (no-one can think about things the way some-one else does exactly), but don't give up! You've always got a shoulder to come to :shy:

 

[Skorian]

Written 2009?

What do you think you are afraid of?

Are you afraid that no one can handle the alternative?

 

[Naleena]

WOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow!!!! That was so awesome! You have a way with words. I really loved that! It spoke to me You have a gift, Equinox. Thank you for sharing your beautiful words.

 

[Equinox]

Thank you! I might actually dare post another one now.