out of sorts

[mickey]

I call it "feeling out of sorts." It's really hard to describe. The closest I can come to describing it is that I don't want to do anything I'm in a position to do, or that needs to be done, but I don't want to just sit here and do nothing, either. But there's only a tiny bit of restlessness involved. Mostly it's like I'm not really myself or comfortable in my own skin.

Sometimes this feeling has physical causes, such as dehydration or needing to take a large crap without being aware of those things. At other times it follows an emotional upset that leaves me drained. Recently I got far too upset at some bureaucratic problem with the feudal lord of the Greater Toronto Area, a huge company called Rogers that might as well buy City Hall and everyone in it the way it goes about its business and the level of megalomania it has. I don't even know why I got that upset about a minor thing. Maybe it goes deeper to feeling like a little guy who doesn't matter in the face of huge multinational corporate giants. We all get that from time to time, and this time it has made me feel drained and out of sorts.

Thank you for reading.

 

[lifestream]

How do you bring yourself out of it, mickey? Or does that happen organically?

 

[mickey]

How do you bring yourself out of it, mickey? Or does that happen organically?

If there is no physical cause for it (see above about needing to drink some water or take a crap), then the feeling passes by itself after enough time. On occasion I take a nap or even sleep overnight and it's gone when I wake up.

Just in general, sleep seems to be a natural reaction to some kinds of distress. I know from some study that sleeping clears waste product and toxins from a person's brain, along with promoting faster growth of new neural connections. If you're feeling really down just give in to the desire to sleep if you can. Even a little two-hour nap can help termendously.

 

[lifestream]

Agreed, sleep is a great healer.

Is this something that you've always had to deal with, mickey?

 

[mickey]

Agreed, sleep is a great healer.

Is this something that you've always had to deal with, mickey?

It has a fairly recent onset, probably within the last 18 months or so, and has become especially pronounced in the last six months. Before that I suffered from something different, which was more like stir-craziness and a need to go out of the apartment just to be outside it. That feeling left me on Christmas Day, when I went to a restaurant alone for Christmas dinner and felt horribly oppressed by being among other people, and couldn't wait to get back to my room. Since then I've actually enjoyed going out very rarely for brief periods of time, but have never felt stir crazy or like I had to go out just for the sake of going out. It's just that the times when I feel the way I've described in my original post are somewhat more frequent. And most of the time it does have a physical cause. I've even caught myself realizing that I hadn't eaten anything since getting up seven hours earlier but had consumed significant amounts of coffee, so that a light meal made the feeling go away. Truth to tell I think my body is aging (i'm 49) and starting to break down, because I also experience some internal nerve insensitivity, and it's getting worse. For example, I rarely feel appetite. Usually, I just feel like have an upset stomach and figure out consciously that I need to eat. Anyway....

 

[wolvesjr]

If there is no physical cause for it (see above about needing to drink some water or take a crap), then the feeling passes by itself after enough time. On occasion I take a nap or even sleep overnight and it's gone when I wake up.

Just in general, sleep seems to be a natural reaction to some kinds of distress. I know from some study that sleeping clears waste product and toxins from a person's brain, along with promoting faster growth of new neural connections. If you're feeling really down just give in to the desire to sleep if you can. Even a little two-hour nap can help termendously.

That's something I've noticed as well. My roughest days usually occur when I sleep terrible the night before.

Maybe something is chemically out of balance that's causing the loss of appetite? I know that with depression that was one of the body's possible reactions that could happen. I'm experiencing similar body breakdown issues that you mentioned (as I'm just a few years younger than you are) and it's been difficult to figure out just what my body's "new" normal is let alone with trying to deal with it.

 

[lifestream]

Could it be caffeine-related? Do you smoke, by the way?

 

[mickey]

I do smoke but not sure that has anything to do with it.

 

[lonelydoc]

The corporations survive on dollar denominated debt. The debt has to extend to infinity, otherwise the corporations will all go bankrupt.
However, the debt can't go to infinity, because then the currency has to be printed to infinity, which will result in hyperinflation.

So no worries, the corporations are screwed. Either the debt defaults and they go bankrupt, or the currencies hyperinflate and we all go bankrupt.