So ugly...always ugly...

[Luna]

Some days, I feel just okay...
Okay is happy to me...
But it's almost as if there's a darkness that follows me...
No matter how hard I try to run away...
No matter how I try to hide...
Or how I pretend it doesn't exist...
It's always there...
Searching, hunting, watching...
Always waiting for me...
And I always return to its arms...
Because somehow...
The familiarity of it, comforts me...

I am so sick of myself...
I can only feel and see ugly in myself...
I hate seeing myself...
I hate having others to see me...
Tired of everyone and everything...
Same old, same old...
I could pretend it doesn't matter...
But today...especially today, I feel so ugly...

 

[Brian]

I've seen a picture of you and no you're not.

Quit it. You're being silly.

 

[dead]

Luna, i agree with Brian, you are not ugly at all, judging by the photo thread.
however... yes, that is rarely a reason not to feel this way, heh

i hope you will feel better soon.

 

[Minus]

I can only feel and see ugly in myself...

It is amazing how much we can distort our perception of ourselves. While i did not have the opportunity to see this picture that others are referring to, it does sound like your perception of yourself is not what others see. That is pretty common around this forum.

 

[SophiaGrace]

grr I cant find her pic. :l

By telling us how ugly you think you are you're just making us very very curious as to what you actually look like. o__________o

*falls over with curiousity*

 

[edgecrusher]

grr I cant find her pic. :l

By telling us how ugly you think you are you're just making us very very curious as to what you actually look like. o__________o

*falls over with curiousity*

yea i was wondering the same thing. but there are so many pages in that thread and i couldnt find it either.

 

[Punisher]

You not ugly.

 

[Minus]

You not ugly.

yeah

yea i was wondering the same thing. but there are so many pages in that thread and i couldnt find it either.

I believe you would be wasting your time.

 

[AFrozenSoul]

I can relate on always feeling ugly. I feel hideous all the time. I don't think I have ever felt attractive.

I have not seen your pic, but if everyone else says you are attractive then you probably are.

 

[coricopat]

Are you getting any help for this Luna? You're focusing on your appearance, but that's plain old self-hate.

(and I mean therapy, not like a plastic surgeon)

 

[suckaG]

if you're ugly, then I'm hot!

don't worry, it's just your mind playing tricks on you. you're beautiful.

 

[Badjedidude]

^agreed.

 

[Jesse]

Hey Luna, I know how you feel. I havn't seen your pic, but we are often our own worst enemies. One of the things I've told myself lately is that, even though I'm not happy with how I look, I shouldn't let that keep me from being myself!

 

[stella]

Some days, I feel just okay...
Okay is happy to me...
But it's almost as if there's a darkness that follows me...
No matter how hard I try to run away...
No matter how I try to hide...
Or how I pretend it doesn't exist...
It's always there...
Searching, hunting, watching...
Always waiting for me...
And I always return to its arms...
Because somehow...
The familiarity of it, comforts me...

I am so sick of myself...
I can only feel and see ugly in myself...
I hate seeing myself...
I hate having others to see me...
Tired of everyone and everything...
Same old, same old...
I could pretend it doesn't matter...
But today...especially today, I feel so ugly...

Self-disgust is self-obsession

 

[SophiaGrace]

[youtube]R_mkyQbdFng[/youtube]
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[drifter]

[youtube]4nD2vZfdzGg[/youtube]

 

[Phaedron]

My GF wants to keep everything between us long distance these days. She says she'll be back "someday" but certainly not anytime soon.

Needless to say every day is an adventure in feeling ugly and undesired. Her disdain of actually being together with me (after a year of living with me) is so much that I don't even bring it up anymore. No, I just feel more and more unloved, and get to wonder at the things people tend to talk about with other people. Somewhere inside I know I should be feeling vulnurable and embarassed about something, but I just can't take a hint and the mixed signals she sends me...

 

[Mike Moose]

It chokes me up to hear this kind of speak..beauty should come from within..but it is a shallow superficial world..if you feel good within then people will pick up on that...if you don't LIE! they won't know the difference..go out and knock 'em dead!!!

 

[Badjedidude]

^agree.