Loneligyrl
Member
Hey, I’m new here. Just a British girl hoping for some respite.
I’m 23, live alone, not much family- not any that are really worth seeing.
I’m pretty different, or I think of myself as so, I’m autistic, adhd, overly emotional in such complex ways. I feel so different. I feel as though I can’t connect to anything. I wake up crying most days as I’m already dreading the day ahead, and I guess I’m weird so I avoid being around others, I know they think I’m weird. Not that people dislike me but I always feel like the bit of the joke if that makes sense. Nothing makes me happy and it only seems to get worse. I’m told a lot that I don’t ‘look autistic’ or ‘look unwell’ which is something that really hurts me. I’m not sure how someone can look stereotypically autistic, I think it’s just a less rude way of saying I don’t look disabled. As soon as I open my mouth though I get asked if I take drugs, I say odd things I guess and I don’t stop talking. Like ever. It hurts when people think that my behaviour is that odd that I must be on drugs. I’ve never met anyone that I feel I can truly relate to and all my friendships and relationships are fleeting. I just want to stop feeling like I’m living in a locked glass box unable to connect to anything, but watching the world go by.
I am so lonely to my core, and desperate for a true friend. I think a lot of people enjoy my company, but friendship doesn’t come easy to me like I’m not sure how to act. The only thing that gives me a sense of belonging are my dogs and cat, I’m not sure where I’d be without them. I don’t drive and have no friends where I live, so it’s just me and the animals, they help so much but it just isn’t enough sometimes
Thanks for reading, I hope someone responds.
I’m 23, live alone, not much family- not any that are really worth seeing.
I’m pretty different, or I think of myself as so, I’m autistic, adhd, overly emotional in such complex ways. I feel so different. I feel as though I can’t connect to anything. I wake up crying most days as I’m already dreading the day ahead, and I guess I’m weird so I avoid being around others, I know they think I’m weird. Not that people dislike me but I always feel like the bit of the joke if that makes sense. Nothing makes me happy and it only seems to get worse. I’m told a lot that I don’t ‘look autistic’ or ‘look unwell’ which is something that really hurts me. I’m not sure how someone can look stereotypically autistic, I think it’s just a less rude way of saying I don’t look disabled. As soon as I open my mouth though I get asked if I take drugs, I say odd things I guess and I don’t stop talking. Like ever. It hurts when people think that my behaviour is that odd that I must be on drugs. I’ve never met anyone that I feel I can truly relate to and all my friendships and relationships are fleeting. I just want to stop feeling like I’m living in a locked glass box unable to connect to anything, but watching the world go by.
I am so lonely to my core, and desperate for a true friend. I think a lot of people enjoy my company, but friendship doesn’t come easy to me like I’m not sure how to act. The only thing that gives me a sense of belonging are my dogs and cat, I’m not sure where I’d be without them. I don’t drive and have no friends where I live, so it’s just me and the animals, they help so much but it just isn’t enough sometimes
Thanks for reading, I hope someone responds.
