Wanting to die and being okay with that feeling

[Murakami_1]

Sometimes everything becomes too much, sometimes I just want to die.
This comes in waves and depending on the day, the feeling could be more intense, or even invisible for a moment.

I am slowly learning to cope with this, the fact that it is OK. I can feel, things arent always easy. Life ******* sucks, and that is OK.

Saying this I feel like a preacher, but I am just in a weird spot rn. I might just write these words down so they eventually come true. I dont know what I am even trying to say. Sigh sigh sigh time to self medicate I guess

 

[TropicalStarfish]

Not a pleasant way to feel, but, there is a certain comfort to it, in my experience... Hmm.

side quip: When you go the pharmacy to get some aspirin for a fever, ache, or swelling, you're self medicating. But when you go to get some wine, for the sads, you're self medicating.

Eitherway, best not to over do it.

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Take care of yourself out there @Murakami_1

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

Sometimes everything becomes too much, sometimes I just want to die.
This comes in waves and depending on the day, the feeling could be more intense, or even invisible for a moment.

I am slowly learning to cope with this, the fact that it is OK. I can feel, things arent always easy. Life ******* sucks, and that is OK.

Saying this I feel like a preacher, but I am just in a weird spot rn. I might just write these words down so they eventually come true. I dont know what I am even trying to say. Sigh sigh sigh time to self medicate I guess

Why are you suffering from depression? What's making you feel this way? What are your coping mechanisms?

 

[Murakami_1]

Not a pleasant way to feel, but, there is a certain comfort to it, in my experience... Hmm.

side quip: When you go the pharmacy to get some aspirin for a fever, ache, or swelling, you're self medicating. But when you go to get some wine, for the sads, you're self medicating.

Eitherway, best not to over do it.

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Take care of yourself out there @Murakami_1

Yeah thanks, I try not to

 

[Murakami_1]

Why are you suffering from depression? What's making you feel this way? What are your coping mechanisms?

I have had a ****** up life, things are still ****** up. If things werent ****** up anymore I would still be in my own head, which is happening now I guess. Things are transitioning into being a little less ****** up but I am still making myself crazy.

I have been getting help now though, 1x a week dbt therapy in a group and 1x a week a convo with a psychologist. Going to transition into 3x a week dbt but its a process....

Thanks for asking

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

I have had a ****** up life, things are still ****** up. If things werent ****** up anymore I would still be in my own head, which is happening now I guess. Things are transitioning into being a little less ****** up but I am still making myself crazy.

I have been getting help now though, 1x a week dbt therapy in a group and 1x a week a convo with a psychologist. Going to transition into 3x a week dbt but its a process....

Thanks for asking

You're very welcome, if you ever want to talk, my inbox is always open. I hope things will get better for you. I know a thing or two about depression.

 

[Murakami_1]

You're very welcome, if you ever want to talk, my inbox is always open. I hope things will get better for you. I know a thing or two about depression.

Thank you very much!

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

Thank you very much!

You're very welcome.

 

[TheRealCallie]

I have had a ****** up life, things are still ****** up. If things werent ****** up anymore I would still be in my own head, which is happening now I guess. Things are transitioning into being a little less ****** up but I am still making myself crazy.

I have been getting help now though, 1x a week dbt therapy in a group and 1x a week a convo with a psychologist. Going to transition into 3x a week dbt but its a process....

Thanks for asking

Of course you're still making yourself crazy. It's all you know It takes a while to be okay letting go of that and find a new way. Keep trying and just remember we are all here for you. You should also get your ass back into chat.

 

[Murakami_1]

Of course you're still making yourself crazy. It's all you know It takes a while to be okay letting go of that and find a new way. Keep trying and just remember we are all here for you. You should also get your ass back into chat.

Thank you Callie <3

Btw my old discord acc got deleten because I was in someone's server and he didnt act above board....can you send me another invite via dms pls

 

[Unsigned]

I am slowly learning to cope

Coping is good.
I think you will power through.

And...easy on the self medication! (from someone who knows about this...albeit my medication is in liquid form...)

 

[TheRealCallie]

Thank you Callie <3

Btw my old discord acc got deleten because I was in someone's server and he didnt act above board....can you send me another invite via dms pls

Of course, I'll send it now

 

[Murakami_1]

Coping is good.
I think you will power through.

And...easy on the self medication! (from someone who knows about this...albeit my medication is in liquid form...)

lol liquid courage,.. but thanks!

Of course, I'll send it now

thanks!