What are you feeling, hoping, thinking, or remembering right now?

[VeganAtheist]

Lately I have been contemplating being something I hate. I have been thinking of giving myself over to "the dark side". While I wouldn't do anything illegal, I would be doing things outside of my moral standards. And I know that it is largely only to fill this hole in my heart. I know that it is unhealthy. I know that it will likely lead to disaster.

I am so unsure as to what to do right now. I can't really think straight. I am not sure what I am doing anymore. I don't know how to process sadness. I wish I were angry instead... I can work with that. I can work with stress too. But sadness... I can't process sadness. Whatever. Doesn't matter.

 

[johnny196775]

I wanna be healthy and wealthy.

 

[murmi97]

I wanna be healthy and wealthy.

But not wise?

 

[ladyforsaken]

Feeling satisfied.
Hoping I'll get some interviews coming my way.
Thinking about him.
Remembering the good times. It's the only thing that keeps me going sometimes.

 

[thelonegamer]

Hoping everything will be alright

 

[Mr.YellowCat]

Lately I have been contemplating being something I hate. I have been thinking of giving myself over to "the dark side". While I wouldn't do anything illegal, I would be doing things outside of my moral standards. And I know that it is largely only to fill this hole in my heart. I know that it is unhealthy. I know that it will likely lead to disaster.

I am so unsure as to what to do right now. I can't really think straight. I am not sure what I am doing anymore. I don't know how to process sadness. I wish I were angry instead... I can work with that. I can work with stress too. But sadness... I can't process sadness. Whatever. Doesn't matter.

I think I understand your urges to do so. I think I´m having them time to time as well. Its always a tough question.
I do not know what to tell you, but to voice my empathy when it comes to this kind of struggle.

 

[thelonegamer]

Feeling rather shocked. This world is insane. Or my world is. No inbetweens

 

[9006]

Constantly remembering, sometimes it becomes a problem.

 

[ladyforsaken]

I feel sad.. I hope everyone will find some peace.. I think I feel people too much sometimes it's.. hard..

 

[WildernessWildChild]

Very x-rated thoughts and images right now....

 

[thelonegamer]

Feeling like an alien to this world

 

[TheSkaFish]

Angry, confused, nearly beaten.

 

[thelonegamer]

Hurt

 

[TheSkaFish]

Sometimes the only thing that would make me feel better is seeing a "bad boy" at my feet, mangled, bloody, broken. Defeated, by me. I hate those *******. I really do. Watching them coast through life getting first pick of everything, having everything go their way is getting unbearable. I want to do something about it. I want to take some kind of action about it. But of course, it can't be anything crazy. It has to be legal and sane. But what? I can't think of any legal, sane way to even the score.

Even I know this is too much but I just can't find a distraction. Most days now I feel like Jekyll and Hyde. I feel myself see-sawing between trying to find logical, intelligent solutions to my problems and just wanting to fight back blindly.

 

[Rosebolt]

Sometimes the only thing that would make me feel better is seeing a "bad boy" at my feet, mangled, bloody, broken. Defeated, by me. I hate those *******. I really do. Watching them coast through life getting first pick of everything, having everything go their way is getting unbearable. I want to do something about it. I want to take some kind of action about it. But of course, it can't be anything crazy. It has to be legal and sane. But what? I can't think of any legal, sane way to even the score.

Even I know this is too much but I just can't find a distraction. Most days now I feel like Jekyll and Hyde. I feel myself see-sawing between trying to find logical, intelligent solutions to my problems and just wanting to fight back blindly.

The solution is to not hate, but love, and to forgive those people. Much easier said than done, i know.

 

[Peaches]

I don't know what I want in life anymore, only some months ago everything was so clear...

 

[thelonegamer]

I feel nothing

 

[ladyforsaken]

Sometimes the only thing that would make me feel better is seeing a "bad boy" at my feet, mangled, bloody, broken. Defeated, by me. I hate those *******. I really do. Watching them coast through life getting first pick of everything, having everything go their way is getting unbearable. I want to do something about it. I want to take some kind of action about it. But of course, it can't be anything crazy. It has to be legal and sane. But what? I can't think of any legal, sane way to even the score.

Even I know this is too much but I just can't find a distraction. Most days now I feel like Jekyll and Hyde. I feel myself see-sawing between trying to find logical, intelligent solutions to my problems and just wanting to fight back blindly.

The solution is to not hate, but love, and to forgive those people. Much easier said than done, i know.

Yep. Sometimes that's what's really holding us back from moving forward.

 

[Rosebolt]

Yep. Sometimes that's what's really holding us back from moving forward.

Tell me about it..

 

[thelonegamer]

Feeling pretty good actually

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It's almost 1am and I need to take a honeysuckle but I'm good