What are you feeling, hoping, thinking, or remembering right now?

[Mouse]

Today I feel different; set free, too! I no longer suffer that awful abandonment feeling any more, but kicked it in the bollocks and told it to go away and stay away. In future I am going to be making my own rules of friendship, and nailing down boundaries that will never be encroached upon ever again. I am so done with emotional terrorists who think they can write their own rules and expect me to jump to them.

In future I don't want to be friends with someone who is not going to support me when I am already in a relationship and who is going to hurt me when they find out. It's not fair to me. Not fair to me at all. Rules of engagement, then. New rules. And I am going on as I intend.

 

[PenDragon]

You are the last thread that is keeping me here. Give me the permission to leave. I don't want to be here anymore. This place feels different, alienated. Somebody, somewhere corrupted my mind. This doesn't feel like my home. Once again somebody invaded my sanctuary. They corrupted it with their filth and malice. My heart is no longer pure the way it used to be. They have corrupted it with their malcontent and evil ways. You tried to wash it away but somethings can never be cleaned, can never be made the way it was. Sorry, sorry to disappoint you. I just thought may be, may be I could but...

Well, I got to try at least. I tried as you know. You tried to stop me but yeah, I'm stubborn and A big idiot. I have only two choice now. I give them back what they have given me with added bonus Or I simply walk away from here. It's yours choice now. I no longer hold any power to make any decision. I was never good at making decisions anyway.

Take your time and think, think hard cause many things depend on it.

Or, you can do something even better. Wash my heart clean like the way It was and I will stay here forever like I promised.

 

[Mouse]

This morning I feel fragile, grossed out and shaky. Being diabetic doesn't help. Oh for a lovely bowl of sweet oatmeal, sprinkled with brown demerara sugar.. all those sweet things I miss so acutely right now.

 

[Cavey]

I'm suffering through a bout of insomnia again. I haven't slept since I got up on Wednesday and I had to make a 3 mile round trip to do my physiotherapy. Trying to do anything strenuous when you haven't slept for over 24 hours is an exercise in futility.

 

[user 115627]

Every single word would go to waste anyway.

 

[SophiaGrace]

Every single word would go to waste anyway.

I feel you.

 

[user 115627]

Every single word would go to waste anyway.

I feel you.

It's not always like this. But lately it is too often...

I think I'm growing cold again. I know I still got the capacity to reach out, but I don't have the drive anymore.

 

[Solivagant]

I'm suffering through a bout of insomnia again.

Same here. I've hardly slept in almost two weeks.

 

[lonelyfairy]

I don't know what to think or feel. Wow... This day was such a storm.

This morning I feel fragile, grossed out and shaky. Being diabetic doesn't help. Oh for a lovely bowl of sweet oatmeal, sprinkled with brown demerara sugar.. all those sweet things I miss so acutely right now.

*hugs* :<

 

[Mouse]

I don't know what to think or feel. Wow... This day was such a storm.

This morning I feel fragile, grossed out and shaky. Being diabetic doesn't help. Oh for a lovely bowl of sweet oatmeal, sprinkled with brown demerara sugar.. all those sweet things I miss so acutely right now.

*hugs* :<

Thank you, Fairy. Thank you so much.

Well, barely half an hour ago it could have been a full blown hypo had my daughter not got to me fast; the brutes happen without warning and these days I'm so careful. She knows exactly what to do, cool throughout my shaking and sweating. Fed me dextro tablets til my blood glucose returned to normal: 5.4

I'm feeling very drained.

 

[SophiaGrace]

I don't know what to think or feel. Wow... This day was such a storm.

This morning I feel fragile, grossed out and shaky. Being diabetic doesn't help. Oh for a lovely bowl of sweet oatmeal, sprinkled with brown demerara sugar.. all those sweet things I miss so acutely right now.

*hugs* :<

Thank you, Fairy. Thank you so much.

Well, barely half an hour ago it could have been a full blown hypo had my daughter not got to me fast; the brutes happen without warning and these days I'm so careful. She knows exactly what to do, cool throughout my shaking and sweating. Fed me dextro tablets til my blood glucose returned to normal: 5.4

I'm feeling very drained.

(hugs) Glad you're feeling better.

 

[Skid Row 89]

I'm going to make a conscious effort to improve myself. I just need to keep trying.

 

[Cavey]

I'm suffering through a bout of insomnia again.

Same here. I've hardly slept in almost two weeks.

It's terrible, isn't it? It's now 2 am on Friday morning and I still can't go to sleep. I'm also eating loads of food to compensate. I hope it rights itself again soon.

 

[PenDragon]

Oh snap! I better edit it before anyone reads it again.

 

[user 115627]

I can cope with all sorts of liars...but I can't deal with people that think of their own delusion of reality as truth. I am not the only one who knows that what you claimed is simply untrue. But I'm afraid you'll believe in it either way.

 

[lonelyfairy]

I don't know what to think or feel. Wow... This day was such a storm.

This morning I feel fragile, grossed out and shaky. Being diabetic doesn't help. Oh for a lovely bowl of sweet oatmeal, sprinkled with brown demerara sugar.. all those sweet things I miss so acutely right now.

*hugs* :<

Thank you, Fairy. Thank you so much.

Well, barely half an hour ago it could have been a full blown hypo had my daughter not got to me fast; the brutes happen without warning and these days I'm so careful. She knows exactly what to do, cool throughout my shaking and sweating. Fed me dextro tablets til my blood glucose returned to normal: 5.4

I'm feeling very drained.

Awwe, I'm sorry Anna. :/ I hope you feel better soon *hugs*

 

[Mouse]

I don't know what to think or feel. Wow... This day was such a storm.

This morning I feel fragile, grossed out and shaky. Being diabetic doesn't help. Oh for a lovely bowl of sweet oatmeal, sprinkled with brown demerara sugar.. all those sweet things I miss so acutely right now.

*hugs* :<

Thank you, Fairy. Thank you so much.

Well, barely half an hour ago it could have been a full blown hypo had my daughter not got to me fast; the brutes happen without warning and these days I'm so careful. She knows exactly what to do, cool throughout my shaking and sweating. Fed me dextro tablets til my blood glucose returned to normal: 5.4

I'm feeling very drained.

Awwe, I'm sorry Anna. :/ I hope you feel better soon *hugs*

Since we posted on those quotes, things for me have improved a lot. It's also a bit later in the morning which is because I slept on longer so feel much better. Still, you are virtually the only one here who knows exactly what is going on, and this must be the empathic side which is a gift and, a very beautiful gift you were given, too.

You kindness humbles me. I love you very much and appreciate all that you do. I hope you begin to feel better soon. ((HUGS))

 

[PenDragon]

Oh boy!

 

[Tealeaf]

Considering just calling in sick Monday.

What's the point? I don't want to go in there and feel everyone walling me off and looking past me. Not now.

 

[Mouse]

I'm hoping a lorryload of **** falls upon my enemy's head.