kamya
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PenDragon said:How does it work? The self assurance. How does one simply assure oneself that everything will be okay one day that everything will be fine somehow. It's like cheating to oneself. Trying convince oneself that things will work out in the end but some times It does and sometimes it doesn't that's fact. How long one can keep oneself in dark hoping to see the light when in reality there will be no light when one opens his/her eyes just to be taken by surprise and reality of the situation only to know that everything once he/she believed in was his/her own imaginations and nothing more. A castle build on sand which will be washed away eventually. Never to be seen again like it never existed in the first place. Like a dream of a child never to be accomplished. Never to be paid attention to it not care nor any involvement yet it was precious and mystic. Like long lost dream of a dreamer which he once build his whole life around it but never had the chance to see it getting done for real. Like a singer who lost his voice even before singing anything, like a painter who lost his color before he could paint anything, like...like...like...like a man who has lost his very soul trying to convince himself for nothing.
Is this how it will end...I'm doubtful yet hopeful cause there is still some spark in it, sufficient enough to light up whole life.
You just keep doing it until either things get better or you die.
