What are you feeling, hoping, thinking, or remembering right now?

[ladyforsaken]

I can't forget about what she said to me. I feel like scum walking the earth. Like a whole blob of mutated human gene walking around polluting normal people's space on earth. Thanks for letting me know how ugly I was, inside out.

She was the ugly one, not you.

She might just be right though... to some extent.

 

[mslonely]

I can't forget about what she said to me. I feel like scum walking the earth. Like a whole blob of mutated human gene walking around polluting normal people's space on earth. Thanks for letting me know how ugly I was, inside out.

She was the ugly one, not you.

She might just be right though... to some extent.

So sad how one person can make another feel this way. It just brings so much anger. Please be reminded; you are beautiful LadyF, I mean this.

 

[user 115627]

Spite. Hatred. Self-pity. Anger. Self-loathing. Scorn...take your pick.

This truly is a bad time to be messed up.

 

[Aisha]

I don't want to go out. Insecurities seeping in. I want to hide again.

 

[PenDragon]

Hmm...Will it be this quiet too when I'll leave from here?...

 

[Raven22]

I am hoping that i can mend something that is broken.

 

[user 115627]

Hmm, I'm really out of ideas here. Too bad that "intimidating stare" is not a useful special skill to be put into an application...unless I want to be a bouncer. And that's out of question with my current physique.

 

[Solivagant]

I'm really not ready for the sun to come up. Go away!

 

[lifestream]

Hmm, I'm really out of ideas here. Too bad that "intimidating stare" is not a useful special skill to be put into an application...unless I want to be a bouncer. And that's out of question with my current physique.

How about drill instructor or clinical psychologist. Nine tenths of those jobs are about intimidating stares.

 

[user 115627]

Hmm, I'm really out of ideas here. Too bad that "intimidating stare" is not a useful special skill to be put into an application...unless I want to be a bouncer. And that's out of question with my current physique.

How about drill instructor or clinical psychologist. Nine tenths of those jobs are about intimidating stares.

Tempting...now I almost regret that they didn't let me into the army here. Certainly easier than studying psychology first just to stare at people all day long.

 

[mslonely]

I'm feeling so sad and angry at the same time. I hate depending on the actions and decisions of others. Now I am stuck. great!

 

[VanillaCreme]

Yeah... I remember you being an idiot in school, too. That's why you complained about never getting along with most people. And oh, look, here you are complaining about something else.

 

[Nely Lo]

I'm hoping that it wasn't mistake because I can't think straight these days.

 

[ladyforsaken]

Ever since that incident with the stranger, it seems to have been compensated by such nice nurses and fellow patients at the treatment centre. One of the head nurses even commented to my main doctor in charge when I was seeing him, saying that I'm special so they should waive off the daily consultation fees except for just one day a week. I thought to myself, well yeah, special only cos I am pretty much there daily for each monthly cycle. I don't think there is any other patient who's there as often as I am. But I know the head nurse didn't mean it like that.

I bumped into another nurse who used to attend to me but she's been transferred back to doing duties at the ward. She was always really nice and friendly to me.

Not to mention there were 2 other patients who saw me today and talked to me. One of them talked for way too much till my head hurt... but I just didn't have the heart to cut her off since she seemed to enjoy it. Ah well. Ronny, the other one, remembered I was on break and said he missed seeing me around. Of course he started off with his usual morbid jokes... mortuary block being the next destination for some of us and that we should meet up there someday. :s

It's funny how one person can just bring you down so much with negativity they shoot at you. I know not everyone will like us all. I just think that one doesn't need to deliver it the way this stranger did to me the other day. I think I am still recovering from that..

I'm feeling so sad and angry at the same time. I hate depending on the actions and decisions of others. Now I am stuck. great!

This is something that's hard to do - avoid depending on other people for anything. I don't most of the time, but I am human and end up expecting sometimes. Hope you'll feel better soon.

 

[Solivagant]

Feeling so clouded and scatterbrained. I've been having trouble putting words together for the longest time.

 

[Tealeaf]

I've spent the last few weeks feeling that my writing's gotten worse, but looking at a lot of beginners I'm cringing at the overuse of adjectives, adverbs, and pretentious word choice. It's just hard to follow. Maybe I've learned some, after all.

 

[Raven22]

I am hoping a friend is well and will get in touch very soon

 

[Aisha]

Not sure what to think after hearing that. I need to work harder. I need to measure up, I need to be better, I need to excel. I wish him all the best, but once he starts this, he's game too. Everyone's a judge. I'd better leave no room for negative judgement, not in this.

 

[PenDragon]

 

[TheRealCallie]

I feel....like a cow.