What are you feeling, hoping, thinking, or remembering right now?

[ladyforsaken]

I'm getting a little nervous. My operation is only about 2 hours away.

Not sure what it is for but I'm sending my best wishes to you for this. May it go smoothly and may you have a speedy recovery. *hugs*

 

[ladyforsaken]

I'm actually not looking forward to tomorrow.

 

[Nicolelt]

Even the good days seem bad lately.

 

[Tealeaf]

It's ironic that the only truly nice place on the Internet I know is an MMO, many of which are renowned for their horrible communities.

Four months into FFXIV and I still haven't met a single bad apple. I used to basically run off when other players approached me, especially if I thought they were men, but no one has done anything rude, creepy, or pushy yet when I stayed to talk. The guy who made me free gear while I was leveling a second class even has a girlfriend he started the game with.

Maybe it's just the atmosphere of a place you need to pay to access, maybe it's because I'm not a confirmed woman there, or maybe the bad apples flock to places that seem like better hunting grounds than a video game. The usual MMO sour attitudes seem to get shut down fast here.

I hope this doesn't jinx it.

 

[ladyforsaken]

Sigh..

 

[lonelyfairy]

It doesn't matter what I'm feeling, hoping, thinking or remembering. I'm just a tiny teeny part of universe, made of star dust and completely meaningless when you look at the universe in a big picture.

 

[Aisha]

So very tired. I would so much rather not have traveled anywhere today, but I'm glad I met up with them. I feel like a protective mother hen.
I'm glad I participated in yet another Great Cat Rescue. Or rather, Tiny Cat Rescue. I wish I could have brought them home with me but I hope the babies will be okay with her. Thank goodness I was in time to catch the last bus even after all that.

 

[Eliraven]

How life is so unfair sometimes .

 

[PenDragon]

Why don't you come here anymore, Rose? This place is feeling so distant lately. Don't want to post here anything anymore. Dammit! not everyone is jerk, give us chance, please.

Man, I'm missing her so badly. It would be real heart break If you won't come soon.

 

[user 115627]

It would be pretty cool if I can still open my right eye tomorrow.

 

[Eliraven]

I'm actually not looking forward to tomorrow.

Me neither Ladyforsaken

 

[PenDragon]

Only yesterday I was remembering Rose and Now Rosebolt too.

 

[ladyforsaken]

Rosebolt too.

Rosebolt said that his recent diary posts should explain for his leaving.

Sometimes people leave for the better or for good, so I wouldn't be sad for them. Yes, it's not the same anymore and it sucks, but I'm pretty sure they know what they're doing so I'd rather wish them the best and hope that they do better off the forum.

 

[user 115627]

Mystery of the day: Who the hell cut his nails at the bus stop?

 

[ladyforsaken]

Mystery of the day: Who the hell cut his nails at the bus stop?

I have witnessed a woman do this at the bus stop once. It felt odd seeing that...

 

[9006]

Hoping I'll receive my stupid V5 document soon, I need that honeysuckle now.

 

[PenDragon]

It's been a while since I have a dual with anyone, hmm. Fisticuff, pfffffffffft.

 

[Peaches]

trying to convince some people I know to try alternative therapies for their father who was given three months to live, I pray that they will try some things, I don't understand why most don't even try

 

[ladyforsaken]

I'm actually not looking forward to tomorrow.

Me neither Ladyforsaken

I actually just saw this. I hope it didn't go too badly for you, Eliraven!



I have loads of random thoughts in my head at the moment. Let's pour it all out.

Definitely not motivated to do anything at all at the moment. I don't know where it all went. Maybe being under the weather has caused this but I want to tell my body and my mind: Hey, it's no bloody excuse to lose all that motivation. Take it all backkk.

On a side note, this cycle is looking promising so far. I'm not hopeful that it will be smooth sailing free of issues after this cycle but at least let me get out there and have a bit of a life, eh. Even if my poor luck comes around and I face something else few months down the road, so be it. I'll appreciate these phases where I can actually do things and not be tied down to a freakin illness.

On another side note, this nurse asked me today why don't I take the anti-nausea medication if I get nauseous anyway after chemo? Well, good question. I've not been asked this until now.

Well, for one, I'd like to minimise the number of drugs my body takes in if I can help it. It's bad enough I have got a toxic drug circling round my system every day on top of all the other oral medications to take. For another, if I feel I can push myself and manage the pain or the challenge, I'd do it. Simply to get myself accustomed to feeling that way since I'll be facing it for the next several months ahead when I analysed this back then. Plus I hate relying on medications to get by unless it's really necessary. So I find ways to combat it. Now, I can manage to ignore feeling nauseated or headachey or bloating, so I'd probably seem like normal but if it gets so bad, I just sleep it off.

I have to say this new bottle of Vitamin C is working better than the previous one that was considerably cheaper. I can't tell what difference there is that makes this current one better. My dad used to tell me how important it is to get adequate supply of Vitamin C, and I never took his advice. Now I know. It really does help me, especially in my current situation.

Can't wait to get started with the oncologist. It's quite intriguing to have medical professionals figure my genes out. No idea what to expect yet, but it should come around soon. Perhaps then I'll know why I've suffered what I suffered.

Wish they'd get back to me soon. I really wanna go back to work... whether there's gonna be anything else or not with my health and treatment plans, I really will decide to go back to work first. It's been 8 months too long. Anything else can wait... at least I hope so.

Okay time to make me do something.

 

[ABrokenMan]

I concur with you regarding the meds, Lady F.

I have an auto-immune disease (dealing with it for 23 years now). In the early days of my diagnosis, which took 1.5 years to arrive at, I was prescribed several oral medications. Over time, those meds caused more issues which I also have to deal with now. So, whenever I visit my doctor and she urges me to take different preventive meds, I defiantly tell her "No Way". If something is just to possibly prevent something down the road and it is tied to a bevvy of side effects, why bother? I am not taking anything anymore unless i absolutely need it to alleviate severe pain (which ebbs and flows for me in unpredictable fashion).