What are you feeling, hoping, thinking, or remembering right now?

[user 115627]

I really was one of the first rats to leave that sinking ship, even if not voluntarily. That company has gone even more to hell in the meantime. Oh well, now that I got a new job coming up, I'm glad they threw me overboard. There's no reason to look back anymore.

 

[ladyforsaken]

I concur with you regarding the meds, Lady F.

I have an auto-immune disease (dealing with it for 23 years now). In the early days of my diagnosis, which took 1.5 years to arrive at, I was prescribed several oral medications. Over time, those meds caused more issues which I also have to deal with now. So, whenever I visit my doctor and she urges me to take different preventive meds, I defiantly tell her "No Way". If something is just to possibly prevent something down the road and it is tied to a bevvy of side effects, why bother? I am not taking anything anymore unless i absolutely need it to alleviate severe pain (which ebbs and flows for me in unpredictable fashion).

Sorry to hear about your auto-immune disease but that's exactly how it is with me too. If I can help it, I'd refuse these things.
I hope you're doing all right with this though.

 

[PenDragon]

Long day ahead, I better complete all my objectives, primary ones first then secondary.

 

[Eliraven]

It may sound mean and I honestly don't care but I want life to make him pay for what he did to me and my grandma on her funeral day. And I want life to make him pay where it will hurt him the most. So, he suffers what I suffer.

 

[Peaches]

my mother is DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!!!

 

[Paraiyar]

my mother is DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!!!

Maybe you should go for a run to get away from her.

 

[9006]

How do people coast through life, hardly work, yet seem to be able to live the life of a committed WORKING person? Wtf?

 

[Oldyoung]

Mystery of the day: Who the hell cut his nails at the bus stop?

I've done it, at a train station. When you're traveling, discover your nails have grown too long and you got time to kill.. Why not?

I don't think it's so unhygienic either. Weird though, since most do that in private.

 

[TheRealCallie]

Mystery of the day: Who the hell cut his nails at the bus stop?

I've done it, at a train station. When you're traveling, discover your nails have grown too long and you got time to kill.. Why not?

I don't think it's so unhygienic either. Weird though, since most do that in private.

It's all fun and games until someone gets a clipping to the eye :club:

 

[ladyforsaken]

Nobody ever keeps their word anymore. People always tell me they will do something but they never do. If you don't think you can fulfill the tasks mentioned, then don't say you will get it done. I'm cool with giving people time to do what they say they want to do, and they can take as long as they want, heck my patience can go on for months on end - but hey, everything has a limit. Even patience has limits. So if I don't seem too enthusiastic about it, don't blame me.

 

[TheRealCallie]

I think you people are full of ******* honeysuckle. It's just as much YOUR fault as it is his. 4-6 weeks is bullshit.....I WANT MY ******* MONEY!!!!

 

[ladyforsaken]

I feel sorry for people who try to hint at me. I suck at catching hints. I seriously just thought he was really good in his work and was very attentive to my needs or even any other patient's needs. I mean, it's his job, why would I think of it differently or more than just that?

Now that I think about it, he's been around me so much, tending to me every day this week, even today when he was assigned to another room. They said that he always wants to tend to me, but I always thought he was just being.. prompt and efficient, especially for a newbie. I mean I was impressed at how attentive he's been towards me that I wrote a positive feedback for him yesterday but never did it cross my mind.... sigh. The other nurses called me clueless. Well, yeah.. how was I suppose to know?!

I just hope this doesn't make our future interactions awkward. I think I'm just around these people way too much...

 

[kunapuy]

i think i've changed a lot, not in a good way :/
"i think i need a lot of support, im not an independent kind of person, i always follow someone's path not knowing the reason behind it, now im stuck and have nowhere to go and i wish things will get easier as the time passed."

 

[Aisha]

Just received news that a 12 year old neighbour of ours has died after falling from the 5th floor balcony of his home, right in front of his mother. This is the sort of acute pain everybody feels, because no one ever expects tragedies of this nature to befall children, even though we know it can and does happen. I wish children could recognize that recklessness has consequences, but then again, I wouldn't want them to be confronted with mortality at such a young age. I cannot imagine the pain his parents are going through, especially his mother. I know that it isn't possible to protect them all the time, and I don't have children of my own, but just to be able to empathize is enough to hurt anyone. It reminds me of my foolhardy little brother and cousins jumping from roof to roof from 4-6 storey buildings when they were younger. I am so glad they've grown out of that phase. I cannot imagine the indescribable pain that the child's family must be enduring at this moment.

 

[Oldyoung]

LadyF.. If you happen to have confidence issues, then you spend so much energy on looking for bad signals from people, that you forget there exists anything such as positive signals. It's kinda funny and sad at the same time, when people can't even consider the possibility that others may like them. It has happened to me. (Or actually, it probably never happened to me.. It's just too unlikely in my case :shy: )

Aisha.. Yeah. 12 year old is way too young to go. I hope his family can carry on, though things will never be the same again.

Callie. I aim for the ground. That should be good enough!

 

[ladyforsaken]

LadyF.. If you happen to have confidence issues, then you spend so much energy on looking for bad signals from people, that you forget there exists anything such as positive signals. It's kinda funny and sad at the same time, when people can't even consider the possibility that others may like them. It has happened to me. (Or actually, it probably never happened to me.. It's just too unlikely in my case :shy: )

I think it's more that I don't think they could have any interest in me.. in that certain way. I don't think I'm very desirable, let alone attractive on the surface to have caused this.

Especially in this case, when he barely knew me personally. Well sure he knows my full name, my date of birth and where I stay since they always have to verify it every time they prep me for treatment. And sure he knows a little bit about me with the many short conversations we've had while he tends to me.. and that's it. And whatever extra kind gestures done for me I take them as goodwill and nothing more and just think that it is his job and that's why he's so attentive and so nice to me. Whichever nurse tends to me, I always try to give back in some way like giving feedback or just being patient with them when they get very busy or to just smile.

So today when I saw him again, it kind of got me wondering, if perhaps my casual and platonic liking for his services during my treatment might have caused him to think that I am interested in return? I certainly hope not. I mean I express the same with other nurses too. I'm sure it'd make them feel good to hear compliments where deserved, right? Now I don't know how to behave around him cos I don't want to give the wrong signals.

Sigh, I don't know. It is so hard when people develop crushes or feelings, and they pick up on any slight action or signal and think it's something when it's not.

In fact, I'm not even sure what's there to crush on anyway.

 

[Peaches]

Now that I think about it, he's been around me so much, tending to me every day this week, even today when he was assigned to another room. They said that he always wants to tend to me, but I always thought he was just being.. prompt and efficient, especially for a newbie. I mean I was impressed at how attentive he's been towards me that I wrote a positive feedback for him yesterday but never did it cross my mind.... sigh. The other nurses called me clueless. Well, yeah.. how was I suppose to know?!

eheh, even in case you don't like this one, I hope you get a really nice doctor boyfriend out of this ordeal you are totally crush-able (worth crushing on)

 

[Aisha]

Food art! I wish I could cook here..

 

[Serenia]

Feeling exhausted but relieved this week is over with. I hope there won't be anything else this weekend.

 

[Aisha]

"Just give me something."

Why can't I do that much? I need to stop putting it off. It's never going to get easier. I just need to be better.