Feeling - overwhelmed, nostalgic, missing - people, times, my old life, the way things were before.
And lonely, both for a girlfriend, and regular friends.
But, due to being overwhelmed, I haven't been in much of a headspace, to be much of a friend myself lately, let alone a romantic partner.
I've noticed in conversations that I've been almost completely dependent on the other person to carry it, no matter who it is - a relative, a friend, anyone. Just haven't had much energy/haven't been in a good mood lately for an extended amount of time.
I haven't been reaching out, because I just don't have too much right now. Not too many thoughts or ideas to share. I haven't been into anything lately besides running, and I look at that as more of a thing to do, routine maintenance, in this case of the body - rather than a true interest. And I don't want to bring anyone else down, cause then they won't want to talk to me anymore. I learned that. So I figured all I can really do right now is wait.