I'm tired of being neurotic,egotistical,obsessive compulsive, and autistic. I'm tired of the never ending waves of music in my head, the constant stream of thoughts that occur over and over and over. I'm tired of saying the same thing over and over till I think I got it right, the pacing, all my million quirks and things I do. The fact that I can't play with my nieces or let anyone touch me. That I can't eat food I see handled by other people without a grimace. That I can't describe emotions and feelings, how I can't even imagine being someone else. Not relating to people, looking at the sky and not faces, not being able to tell people apart, just spouting random facts, not being able to hold a conversation, not getting sarcasm, not getting jokes. I feel more like a machine than a person
