What are you thinking right now?

[Minus]

Its all good fun

It might be if you are out front playing but as part of a trip to the doctors office it doesn't sound fun at all

 

[Bluey]

Well I think most there was going to the school that's next to the doctors. But ye I see your point. I was not ill just tho. I have to paint my tow nails every night and morning now in tell the bad stuff grows out lol But ye I bet there was some poorly ppl that have to get down that hill as well. That would not be much fun. And if your old as well. But where I live is very hilly anyway. This is why I have an electric push bike. That Ive not been on in agrees cos its been to cold. Is a summer toy relay.

 

[Minus]

I don't imagine that your bike does well on ice either unless the idea is to get to the bottom of the hill faster in any position possible.
Maybe the doctor picked up a couple extra clients.

 

[Bluey]

lol. Probably he did. Ye I think I well white for the summer to get on the bike. I still have a scar on my arm from coming of a bike at 16.

Well I am hungry so even tho its nearly 11:30 in the morning here I gonna have some breakfast and a shower.

 

[Minus]

Now that sounds like an idea

 

[Darkener]

I'm so ******* cold right now... why did it have to work like this. I'm sitting here after working a shift in that hellhole waiting for my chance to escape this town. His mother is a ******* bitch. pushed him out and now he's gone. I'm left alone in this ******* place. My best friend is living in the city. That's where I should be. No one would of guessed he'd be out first. Hopefully he gets out of debt. Now he's in the came vicinity as her. How the **** am I gonna make this work. My attention is limited in the amount of time it has to give itself...... **** this new tattoo hurts.

 

[Van Hooligan X]

thinking that i should drink more can's and **** my health up more, then i can be closer to death..

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Will...I went to work without really having to depend, depend on people today.
I almost didn't go today but I'm glad I made it through.
Usually cummuting to work wasn't a major issues in my life, but it turned into a challenge.

I have to take a bus to another town...then cross the boarder into Mexico.
Then try to fine a bus or a taxi to the facility.
Errr.....I'm not beyound taking the bus or cab today.
It wouldn't be so bad...if I knew spanish and know how to ask for directions....

It's cool...It's something new I havn't experince in my life. it's like a journey..
Lots of beautiful women too. My co-workers say i need a latina GF to teach me spanish.
Ahhh yeah...I wish I was that luckie. She can teach me all kinds of spanish in bed..lmao

Anyway, it's not that big of a deal..I just needed to practice patience and get over some fears.
Hanging around bus depot is not my things. I didn't get mugged yet...I'll keep my fingers cross.

I actaully met a guy I never knew that gave me a ride this morning in his car...that's cool. He was nice.
He showed me his stomuch...He has a bag attached to his stomuch...lol
He had surgery last months...

When I got into Mexico, I had to give the taxi driver directions in english....
He didn't fully understood me...He's actaully middle eastern and had immagrated to mexico.
He spoke very little english...But I inneracted with him.
I found out his name...he has 2 kids and a wife that he loves very much.
He moved to mexico 8 years ago.
He also tried to teached me new words in spanish...that's cool.

It's a far cry from 6 months ago...when I isolate myself.
Being around people used to give me the cripps...

I feel like I accomplished something and getting control over my life again.
Not so much taking cotrol over everything and everyone else around me.
but taking control over myself and doing what I needed to do for myself.

I've been working on my car too...so that's coming alone.
The engine cranks over fine and she'll run if i just get the bad fuel out of the tank.
I used a can of starting fluid to start the car and kept it running for a couple of minutes.
I replaced the tail lights that somebody stole from me.
I purchased a new battery and tired for it too.
I asked a couple of friends to help me...they said okay.
I'm not sure if they can really help me...but at least I had enough courage to ask for help.
At first i didn't really want to repair my car and just wanted to save money for a new car.
Err...yeah I'm a little spoil sometimes. I drive my mom's bad ass SUV around when I'm in the USA.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I'm thinking about someone that reached out to me and tried to help me.
I'm so grateful that god sent her into my life. I was feeling really,
really bad the day she first spoke to me. Just hearing her vioce helped me.
I isolated myself from everything and everyone for over a year.
I needed and wanted someone I could talk to...about anything,
anything to get me to forget about my pains. I wasn't well.

In all honesty I was hanging on by a thread. I know..she couldn't
solved any of my problems for me. But at that piont in my life..I felt
life was meaningless and piontless. I felt no one really cares oneway
or the other. I felt like I was used and abused then thrown away.
And for the longest time...I felt like I was going out of my fucken
mind talking to a dead women. I couldn't get Jenni's vioce out of
my fucken head. I wait up everyday with Jenni on my mind. I thought
I was going fucken crazy. I didn't want anyone to know that i was
going through that...that why I isolated myself. i didn't want people
to think i was crazy talking to a dead woman...I was in love with a
dead woman...and half of the fucken time I wanted to hang myself
so i can be with her.

Anyway, talking to D helped me so..so much.
I hear her vioce in my mind today...she's alive. Sometimes
I'd wake up with D on my mind...and throughout my days
I would think about her off and on...i wonder how she's feeling
and what she's doing. I don't feel so fucken crazy or like a wacked job
anymore. Everytime i think if her..i feel joy and peace .

I feel so fucken bad that she's is sufferning today for
some stupid ****...I can hear her vioce wanting to cry becuase she's
hurting really bad. Usually she's in a cheerful mood. I don't
know if she'll get over it...i can't say that. She feels what she feels
and i can't change that.

and i would support and repect her in any decisions she makes.
I love and care for her very much.

 

[Lexicon Devil]

I'm thinking our snow storm is AMAZING!!! The uk has come to a standstill lol we're so lame.

 

[Bluey]

I'm thinking our snow storm is AMAZING!!! The uk has come to a standstill lol we're so lame.

lol, Yes I agree. One little bit of snow and everything stops

I tried to make a snow ball earlier. To frozen to make one tho.
Temprecher where I am is -3

 

[Lexicon Devil]

I'm thinking our snow storm is AMAZING!!! The uk has come to a standstill lol we're so lame.

lol, Yes I agree. One little bit of snow and everything stops

I tried to make a snow ball earlier. To frozen to make one tho.
Temprecher where I am is -3

wow thats cold Bluey, the temperature down here is 3 degrees but with the wind chill it feels a lot less.

 

[Unacceptance]

What a ****** day...

 

[Bluey]

What a ****** day...

Agreed. I just went back to bed for 2 hours. I gots coffee now and chocolate brightening my day up so its all gonna turn around now you see lol

Hope you had a good B-day old boy

 

[Bluey]

I'm thinking our snow storm is AMAZING!!! The uk has come to a standstill lol we're so lame.

lol, Yes I agree. One little bit of snow and everything stops

I tried to make a snow ball earlier. To frozen to make one tho.
Temprecher where I am is -3

wow thats cold Bluey, the temperature down here is 3 degrees but with the wind chill it feels a lot less.

The wind dose make it feel even moor colder. Actually looks worm tell you go out in it.

 

[Unacceptance]

What a ****** day...

Agreed. I just went back to bed for 2 hours. I gots coffee now and chocolate brightening my day up so its all gonna turn around now you see lol

Hope you had a good B-day old boy

Nice. I'm just glad that this day is almost over for me.

My birthday isn't until the end of the month.

 

[Bluey]

What a ****** day...

Agreed. I just went back to bed for 2 hours. I gots coffee now and chocolate brightening my day up so its all gonna turn around now you see lol

Hope you had a good B-day old boy

Nice. I'm just glad that this day is almost over for me.

My birthday isn't until the end of the month.

Oh I thought you had just had it lol

Are you doing anything special for it?

I just had my B-day and I went to a casino for it. wouldn't recommend that lol Ye i lost To much hah It was ok as a one of thing though.

 

[Unacceptance]

What a ****** day...

Agreed. I just went back to bed for 2 hours. I gots coffee now and chocolate brightening my day up so its all gonna turn around now you see lol

Hope you had a good B-day old boy

Nice. I'm just glad that this day is almost over for me.

My birthday isn't until the end of the month.

Oh I thought you had just had it lol

Are you doing anything special for it?

I just had my B-day and I went to a casino for it. wouldn't recommend that lol Ye i lost To much hah It was ok as a one of thing though.

Nope, I don't really celebrate anything.

 

[Bluey]

Nope, I don't really celebrate anything.

Oh man I have always loved my birthdays. Its about the only thing that gets me fro Christmas knowing I got a birthday coming up.

I would so be dragging your ass out if I lived near you

 

[Unacceptance]

Nope, I don't really celebrate anything.

Oh man I have always loved my birthdays. Its about the only thing that gets me fro Christmas knowing I got a birthday coming up.

I would so be dragging your ass out if I lived near you

Chances are I'll be working on it anyway.

Holidays and stuff are kind of pointless in my life. I like to think that every day is a mix between Halloween and Dia de los Muertos.