What are you thinking right now?

[Peaches]

I have a crush! on a 50 something years old ex alcoholic musician with a huge belly and nothing in common! And Facebook says he is in a relationship! AAAAAAAAAHHHHH, what am I doing!?! Ok, ok, it's over already, stupid hormones going all over the place like this, love is BLIND

Thanks for posting this Peaches, it put a grin on my face.

isn't that crazy? No one is going to act upon it, but, still, it's out of this world let's hope to get a crush soon on someone more suitable and unattached

ok, he has the greatest smile, lots of curly hair and plays/sings like an angel

 

[WildernessWildChild]

isn't that crazy? No one is going to act upon it, but, still, it's out of this world

Act upon it- no, out of this world- yes. The great thing about it is it shows you've got hopes and dreams well and truly alive and that you're open to possibilities- that's what made me grin.

 

[Peaches]

ahah, it's more like the hormones who are alive - you know the whole pheromone story? sometimes you are attracted to people you would otherwise find hideous

 

[WildernessWildChild]

ahah, it's more like the hormones who are alive - you know the whole pheromone story? sometimes you are attracted to people you would otherwise find hideous

Yep, I'm aware of the pheromone thing, I've never really worried much about why I feel pulled towards someone, I simply enjoy it. Beauty comes in many forms in people, it's absolutely cool that you've got the ability to look beyond the surface.

 

[WallflowerGirl83]

I'm really happy with myself right now: especially since I'm eating a lot of more healthy choices in food. =) Just made myself some Salmon, it's really making me feel great! I need to get more of this stuff for sure!

 

[Peaches]

ahah, it's more like the hormones who are alive - you know the whole pheromone story? sometimes you are attracted to people you would otherwise find hideous

Yep, I'm aware of the pheromone thing, I've never really worried much about why I feel pulled towards someone, I simply enjoy it. Beauty comes in many forms in people, it's absolutely cool that you've got the ability to look beyond the surface.

why, of course but I want to underline that pheromones ARE surface

 

[LonelySutton]

Yep, I'm aware of the pheromone thing, I've never really worried much about why I feel pulled towards someone, I simply enjoy it. Beauty comes in many forms in people, it's absolutely cool that you've got the ability to look beyond the surface.

I heard a wild theory a few years back... that it is your intestinal bacteria that is controlling this. It has been proven that this gut bacteria can actually smell and they call your "gut" your second brain because that is how much control it has over us. So have you ever gotten a "gut feeling" about someone.... it is your bacteria reacting to someone else's bacterial make up.

 

[MTrip]

And today, I realise that I can only rely on mother, for true family. I keep forgiving and forgetting and I keep getting stomped on over and over again. That's what family is for, isn't it. I am so sad and disappointed and for one who really doesn't like to use the word "hate" on people, it actually says a lot with me using it on you, dear brother. Over time, I can probably forgive. But this time, I know I won't forget. You hurt me. And you were supposed to protect me instead, big brother.

My dear niece whom I love, taught and protected. I always thought you had my back, but clearly you don't and that hurts so deep because of all the people in that little screwed up family of yours, I always thought you would be the person who would do me proud because I thought we had a bond and got each other. I am so hurt by you, little girl. Or not so little anymore.

Dear sister, you have no bloody right to comment when you do not even take responsibility over it and I had to clean up your mess there. You never thanked me, nevermind that, but you never even acknowledged it. And you had the cheek to say what you said. You have no... right.

These people have no regard and consideration of my feelings. They are either oblivious, or choose to be oblivious to my needs and feelings. Just because I have been the rock to support this family for many years now without really breaking down in your faces doesn't mean I have no feelings. I am just.. so.. hurt and disappointed it's hard to even stop these tears from flowing out.

You need a new family...one that you assemble yourself. Being a real family doesn't necessarily involve sharing blood. It is defined by relationships...good ones. If your given family is full of backstabbing ingrates, it's time to replace them.

This involves, of course, cutting them out of the will (if you have one).

 

[WildernessWildChild]

Yep, I'm aware of the pheromone thing, I've never really worried much about why I feel pulled towards someone, I simply enjoy it. Beauty comes in many forms in people, it's absolutely cool that you've got the ability to look beyond the surface.

I heard a wild theory a few years back... that it is your intestinal bacteria that is controlling this. It has been proven that this gut bacteria can actually smell and they call your "gut" your second brain because that is how much control it has over us. So have you ever gotten a "gut feeling" about someone.... it is your bacteria reacting to someone else's bacterial make up.

So that explains the reaction I had to a bad date about ten days ago- some of what I observed did kind of make me queasy. It's awesome to know it wasn't just me, it was my bacteria reacting.....

 

[GraceBlossom]

Love my new job, just not enough hours to make ends meet. Keep looking for a second job now.

 

[Boreal]

I... want to keep working, but... brain... too tired.

 

[MTrip]

I met my brothers new girlfriend today.
He had sent texts saying he got on with her but didn't find her attractive.
So I was curious what she would look like.
When I saw her, there was those few seconds when I thought how unattractive she was and wondered what my brother was doing with her.
And then of course I said 'hello' and invited her in and got to know her and realized what a nice person she was. Funny, interesting and sweet.
Those 'first impressions' - don't know why I thought like that !

That's not your fault, man...Most people put far more stock in first impressions than is warranted, as you have discovered. I do that, too. If it works out for your brother, then he is fortunate indeed.

I'm confused as to how it's not his fault. Don't get me wrong, he's entitled to think however he wants. BUT, his thoughts and actions will always be HIS fault. He is his own person and makes his own judgments and thoughts.
Even if you mean in terms of "oh society says I should think this way, so of course I must" (in other words, being a sheep), it would still be his fault because he CHOOSES to follow the shepherd leading the other sheep.

That answer is based on the old assumption of free will, which is not only obsolete but shoddy philosophy to boot. Between biological influences (particularly one's genetics) & environmental influences (especially other people you learn from while you're growing up), it is glaringly obvious that the concept of free will is untenable. Triple makes his decisions, yes. You make yours. But your decisions & his are not free. Nor will they ever be. A moment's consideration should show you that you have no more control over the next idea that emerges in your brain than of the next sentence I type.

 

[ladyforsaken]

Thanks Peaches, jaguarundi and lonelyfairy. *hugs*

And today, I realise that I can only rely on mother, for true family. I keep forgiving and forgetting and I keep getting stomped on over and over again. That's what family is for, isn't it. I am so sad and disappointed and for one who really doesn't like to use the word "hate" on people, it actually says a lot with me using it on you, dear brother. Over time, I can probably forgive. But this time, I know I won't forget. You hurt me. And you were supposed to protect me instead, big brother.

My dear niece whom I love, taught and protected. I always thought you had my back, but clearly you don't and that hurts so deep because of all the people in that little screwed up family of yours, I always thought you would be the person who would do me proud because I thought we had a bond and got each other. I am so hurt by you, little girl. Or not so little anymore.

Dear sister, you have no bloody right to comment when you do not even take responsibility over it and I had to clean up your mess there. You never thanked me, nevermind that, but you never even acknowledged it. And you had the cheek to say what you said. You have no... right.

These people have no regard and consideration of my feelings. They are either oblivious, or choose to be oblivious to my needs and feelings. Just because I have been the rock to support this family for many years now without really breaking down in your faces doesn't mean I have no feelings. I am just.. so.. hurt and disappointed it's hard to even stop these tears from flowing out.

You need a new family...one that you assemble yourself. Being a real family doesn't necessarily involve sharing blood. It is defined by relationships...good ones. If your given family is full of backstabbing ingrates, it's time to replace them.

This involves, of course, cutting them out of the will (if you have one).

I know, I want to really, MTrip. But I'm not sure if I have it in me to do that. Thinking of leaving home and moving out on my own makes me feel so bad already. Required an army to assure me that it's not something selfish for me to do and that I should do what I want to do if it's for my own good. It is for my own good, as it seems. But I just don't know if I have it in me to just cut them off. I'm so stupid like that.

 

[jaguarundi]

..But I'm not sure if I have it in me to do that. Thinking of leaving home and moving out on my own makes me feel so bad already. Required an army to assure me that it's not something selfish for me to do and that I should do what I want to do if it's for my own good.

There is a huge difference between being selfish and refusing to sacrifice yourself. They have no right to ask you to do that, particularly since it does not appear that they have any intention to put themselves to any inconvenience. In fact if all of them did just a bit, you would not have to make yourself ill in a job you don't like, yes?

If you choose to go, to live your own life for a change instead of one imposed upon you, those of your family who love you will still be there. Those who are not still there, don't love you.

And why be around people who don't - family or not?

 

[Littlesecret]

The term 'black community' makes me sick, why is it acceptable for me to be accountable for others that share the same skin tone as me. Were all individuals and I shouldn't have to explain the actions of others, that I don't know nor care about.

 

[Triple Bogey]

glad I got 2 rounds of golf in despite the awful weather !

 

[MrPaul]

Why has it been so long since I've heard Black Sabbath's Solitude and Planet Caravan, so calming :3

 

[9006]

Ugh it's the escape week this week, rather than the smuggling...

 

[Peaches]

don't answer, you must work, if you answer you will spend 48 hours crying like the last time

 

[TheRealCallie]

I keep debating whether to make myself a cake or not...