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johnny196775
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This website seems to bring out the worst in people. Especially me.
johnny196775 said:elenor rigby?
i think my parents were expecting me to grow up to be a serial killer or something because being gay was not a problem to them in any way. It was like they were relieved.
workaloneuk said:Why do I bother to log in to this site - as I obviously have almost nothing in common with anyone here ....
johnny196775 said:I told someone that i think most of my problems lie within my own head. The advice i got was to cut off my head. I took this as a joke and had a great laugh. :~D
VeganAtheist said:I hate my job with a passion. I need to use that passion to find a new job.
It is difficult to separate people from their ideas and I am not sure that is necessarily a bad thing. Their ideas tell you a lot about how that person thinks and who that person is.TheSkaFish said:Yea, I'm doing that too. Re-directing my passion from hating things to finding a better way. I wish my parents were not so defeatist, though. The attitude seeps into me and makes me feel "why bother, I'm just going to fail anyway". I love my parents, but not their ideas about money. I need to always remember to separate the people from the ideas. I need to shake this image I have of me in the future as a victim, failing. I just am really struggling to picture myself as successful and believe it.
Sometimes I think to myself, why can't I be interested in practical, real-world things that actually make money, like business, law, or engineering? I'd have a lot easier of a time in life, but then again, if I were interested in those things I'd probably also be interested in swearing, alcoholism, and cigarettes.
johnny196775 said:My older bigger brother used to beat me up a lot and the only way i can deal with it is to think i asked for it. Did I? ??????? i think i terorrized him. He was ashamed of me for being gay so i do not talk to him any more. And he sure as hell ain't calling mom and saying is little brother still alive.
VeganAtheist said:It is difficult to separate people from their ideas and I am not sure that is necessarily a bad thing. Their ideas tell you a lot about how that person thinks and who that person is.TheSkaFish said:Yea, I'm doing that too. Re-directing my passion from hating things to finding a better way. I wish my parents were not so defeatist, though. The attitude seeps into me and makes me feel "why bother, I'm just going to fail anyway". I love my parents, but not their ideas about money. I need to always remember to separate the people from the ideas. I need to shake this image I have of me in the future as a victim, failing. I just am really struggling to picture myself as successful and believe it.
Sometimes I think to myself, why can't I be interested in practical, real-world things that actually make money, like business, law, or engineering? I'd have a lot easier of a time in life, but then again, if I were interested in those things I'd probably also be interested in swearing, alcoholism, and cigarettes.
You should definitely work on how you perceive yourself and your future. I think most of us in this forum need to work on that. That isn't to say that the belief that you will succeed will guarantee it but at least you don't doom yourself to fail from the start. Compassion towards yourself can help greatly.
johnny196775 said:My older bigger brother used to beat me up a lot and the only way i can deal with it is to think i asked for it. Did I? ??????? i think i terorrized him. He was ashamed of me for being gay so i do not talk to him any more. And he sure as hell ain't calling mom and saying is little brother still alive.
Physical violence is [almost] never justified unless in self-defense. You didn't ask for it. Don't blame yourself, the victim. He was being bigoted.
johnny196775 said:He beat me up because he struggled to get the same grades i got in grade school. I never did homework. I was too ADHD. He struggled at his homework nightly. When he pissed me off i would call him an idiot and that would enrage him into hitting me. I have always felt like it was all of my fault. I could never tell a therapist because i felt i deserved it. Now im not so sure. My brother was very competitive. He was voted best looking in high school.
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