I really wish I had my own space where I could close the door and be by myself. I don't have my own room, and my computer is in the basement where I am barged in on every 5 minutes it seems. As such, I have to look busy all the time. Ever so often it helps to just sit in my chair and go blank and try to just let everything "settle", to try to calm down a bit. But if my parents saw me just sitting and meditating, there would be questions of "why aren't you looking for a job?!?!?"
Because if I am being stressed out 100% of the time, I'm going to go insane.
I don't smoke marijuana anymore, and we don't have any beer or spirits (parents don't drink), so meditation is how I clear my mind. Unfortunately, it looks like I'm doing nothing when in fact I'm trying to let these knots of stress untangle so I can think clearly.