Arianna said:
Qui said:
I am thinking about life in general... and about how I'm too much of a wuss to love people. I'm kind of wondering why I'm like this and I'm also wondering why I am writing this because no one cares what I think anyway. I'm also thinking someone may respond to that to deny it but they won't because I'm adding this sentence to say that I would expect them to respond but now don't expect them to because I am saying this which will cause people to not bother to argue with me because there really isn't any point anyway. I am thinking myself in circles. It is dangerous for me to respond to these things, I think, because I don't think in logical sequences all the time. I wonder why I'm so lonely and I think it's gotten to my head because I never expected to ever really talk to anyone here, I thought I would post once or twice and be ignored like I was on every other forum I've ever been on, but people here are so kind and caring that they spare a moment to acknowledge me and it really means a lot to me, so I guess this is my way of saying thank you to everyone here... That's what I'm thinking right now.
People respond to you because you
ARE special Qui..
After reading this I am wondering why it is that no one here cares that you are all adults and I'm just a kid. I am also wondering how it is that someone who is 36 or whatever can be feeling the same thing as someone who is 16. It's so strange because I'm just used to people acting like everything i say and feel isn't true it's just an exaggeration and ought to be mocked and I'm just a n00b at life and I'm not old enough, haven't lived enough, I don't know what sadness is, my pain is like a papercut compared to everyone else's amputated face and I don't even know what I'm talking about oh boyyy I could continue this awful run on sentence forever... but it just feels like no one can take my feelings seriously because after all what does a teenager know about emotions? Gah.
So... after writing all that this song popped in my head... And since I was thinking about it I decided you could prolly stand to hear it...
Teenagers -My Chemical Romance