What are you thinking right now?

[Serenia]

I am tired of having it thrown in my face. Maybe I should start being horribble, being nice has got me nowhere.

 

[jblanch3]

That Christmas is in six days, haven't bought anything for anyone yet (not like I have a long list of people) and am not really feeling it at all. I'm not even really talking about being depressed and all those other negative feelings that come with this time of year, I am just going through the motions and am literally feeling no joy or anything else.

 

[user 115627]

To soften the blow does not mean to lace the cocaine, but it would be an interesting way of phrasing it.

 

[user 108508]

I wish a nap was on the agenda today.

 

[AmytheTemperamental]

I wish a nap was on the agenda today.

I napped for the both of us. No worries.

 

[user 108508]

I wish a nap was on the agenda today.

I napped for the both of us. No worries.

You know how much you suck, right?

 

[Case]

Xmas approaches, and that familiar feeling of abandonment, unwanted solitude, and painful regret, haunts me. But, sure. I'll attend your Xmas party and fake a happiness I don't really feel while I watch others have their fun. It will be SUCH a blast.

 

[SlayGuy138]

I've observed that I'm extremely angry and nihilistic a lot of the time. I constantly feel like **** and rant about how the global population deserves genocide, and in hindsight I feel like I come off as sounding like an edgy teenager whose mom took away his Linkin Park CDs. For this I apologize. My feelings dominate me and my past is like a chain tied to my neck that keeps jerking me back every time I try to make progress. At my core I'd like to think that I'm a good person, but I'm idealistic to a fault. I've come to expect that the circumstances of reality have contradicted my vision for a better life, and given such I'm incredibly hateful. I hope that people will take what I say in context.

 

[beautiful loser]

I've observed that I'm extremely angry and nihilistic a lot of the time. I constantly feel like **** and rant about how the global population deserves genocide, and in hindsight I feel like I come off as sounding like an edgy teenager whose mom took away his Linkin Park CDs. For this I apologize. My feelings dominate me and my past is like a chain tied to my neck that keeps jerking me back every time I try to make progress. At my core I'd like to think that I'm a good person, but I'm idealistic to a fault. I've come to expect that the circumstances of reality have contradicted my vision for a better life, and given such I'm incredibly hateful. I hope that people will take what I say in context.

No need to apologize, Slay...we all have our issues. We know you are a good person. Besides, you're still young and have a lot of living to do. Things will get better.

 

[BreakingtheGirl]

I've observed that I'm extremely angry and nihilistic a lot of the time. I constantly feel like **** and rant about how the global population deserves genocide, and in hindsight I feel like I come off as sounding like an edgy teenager whose mom took away his Linkin Park CDs. For this I apologize. My feelings dominate me and my past is like a chain tied to my neck that keeps jerking me back every time I try to make progress. At my core I'd like to think that I'm a good person, but I'm idealistic to a fault. I've come to expect that the circumstances of reality have contradicted my vision for a better life, and given such I'm incredibly hateful. I hope that people will take what I say in context.

Thank you for this. I know you must be in a lot of pain by your posts, but they worried me (and maybe others). I thought many times to message you, but wasn't sure I was qualified or didn't want you to think I was trying to undermine your views of the world & thoughts in your posts. I like your honesty and self-awareness in this post.

 

[SlayGuy138]

In all honesty, if you were to message me then it would've helped to calm me down; I would NEVER lash out at someone who approached me personally, offering their sympathy. If anything I would be shocked, as I'm not used to such things happening. Now I feel like even more of a jerk, that my messages would intimidate people. You being this upfront about things is commendable. Other people already have reached out to me, and I thank them as well.

My views of the world are only the product of my past traumas. Even though the world on the whole may be different, when I say the world is a **** place to be it's because the world as I know it has been just that.

I hope one day I can go to bed and look back, and just chuckle to myself as to how much of a big deal I was making things back then. I hope I can just have stability and happiness - I'm not asking to be the toast of the town and have a six figure income. I just want to be free of the past.

 

[Peaches]

some days I wake up and I just don't know what to do with myself

 

[Aisha]

Do you really think I care? Please continue. Do that to your heart's content. I have no patience for that sort of childish pettiness. What do you do when you have real problems? Good luck. After the end of the week I won't have to see you again for quite some time. Thankfully.

 

[BreakingtheGirl]

In all honesty, if you were to message me then it would've helped to calm me down; I would NEVER lash out at someone who approached me personally, offering their sympathy. If anything I would be shocked, as I'm not used to such things happening. Now I feel like even more of a jerk, that my messages would intimidate people. You being this upfront about things is commendable. Other people already have reached out to me, and I thank them as well.

My views of the world are only the product of my past traumas. Even though the world on the whole may be different, when I say the world is a **** place to be it's because the world as I know it has been just that.

I hope one day I can go to bed and look back, and just chuckle to myself as to how much of a big deal I was making things back then. I hope I can just have stability and happiness - I'm not asking to be the toast of the town and have a six figure income. I just want to be free of the past.

It will take time, but you will get there. You are not alone in the battle of past sadness, I think most of us here definitely have that in common. You are working your way through it all and that's a great thing! Learning and progressing is always better than remaining stagnant. Keep going, I'm rooting for you *big hugs*

 

[ladyforsaken]

Doesn't make sense at all.

How could you? Now this? You just .. make no sense at all. Keep telling yourself that. Your actions don't show it though. Still.. how could you.

 

[Serenia]

Yuk I did not notice they were choc flavoured coated raisins. Why, why, why? Why not cover them in chocolate instead of making a choc flavoured coating...wtf!

 

[Paraiyar]

I can't achieve my goals at the rate I want to be able to achieve them...

 

[ladyforsaken]

Fever, please don't come. I can handle being sick in any way, but please, no fever... that just won't be good.

Plus I need to get this done tonight. By hook or by crook.

 

[user 115627]

My new dentist is rather accurate. Hello future cavity fillings plus first professional tooth cleaning.

Hey, I'm working on Christmas and I don't care. Jumbling up my parents' plans for sure, but not everything can be "the same procedure as every year" when I live 300+ kilometers away now.

 

[Triple Bogey]

my secret santa went down well. She loves it.