constant stranger
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No probs between you and me, Serenia.
constant stranger said:No probs between you and me, Serenia.
Cavey said:With my amazing abilty to spread misery wherever I go, I'm staring to think that my ideal partner may just be Junko Enoshima...
TheSkaFish said:Aisha said:I miss her already, even while with her.
What's wrong?
TheSkaFish said:So angry. I'm angry at the way things have gone for me, in spite of having good intentions. I'm angry at having things held against me when I just didn't know any better, things I damn well would have done something about if only I knew how or what I was doing wrong. I'm angry that when they weighed the good things and the bad things, they counted the bad things more in spite of everything. I'm angry because I thought we understood each other. I expect to be treated like **** by certain people, certain types of people. It doesn't bother me anymore. If someone acts like they were better than me from the start, it's easy for me to say, well **** you too. But it really hurts when someone who acts different, like they see something in you, then all the sudden, you "can't sit with them anymore". When they should know what it's like to be an outcast better than anyone. That's what really hurts.
kamya said:This is a terrible thing mhmm. Time to move on to the next person/ disappointment.
TheSkaFish said:kamya said:This is a terrible thing mhmm. Time to move on to the next person/ disappointment.
I meant that in general. But really though, the phrase "move on" - I really, truly, deeply ******* hate it like all hell, with a passion. There are few phrases, few ideas I hate more. Losers are the ones who get to "move on" to a tiring life of one defeat after the next. Winners get what they want and enjoy themselves. That's the kind of person I want to be.
I don't want to be the kind of person who "moves on" to accepting my role as a low-status person, a luckless, powerless victim that is helpless to do anything but get kicked around randomly and has no choice but to take things as they are or have nothing. All my life I believed I wasn't good enough, that I just wasn't someone who gets what they want and is just doomed to mediocrity and misery due to a lack of talent and luck. **** that story. I'm tired of feeling not good enough. I'm tired of that being my identity. I hate it so much it physically hurts, days like today, I want to rip the "loser" stuff out of me. I'm tired of blowing chances that should have been wins for me, tired of giving life the satisfaction of slapping me in the face and getting away with it. I'm going to beat that piece-of-**** story if it's the last thing I do.
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