What are you thinking right now?

[Knight]

How much I love Mac n' Cheese

 

[evanescencefan91]

ohh hooray happy day

i borrowed some duct tape from my neighbor and my headphones are fixed

XD XD

now my headphones are black with neon green

and i just realized it matches my sweatshirt perfectly

XD XD

 

[Catalyst]

That I'm drowsy and need to get some sleep.

 

[Punisher]

I'll be buying the new Michael Jackson album today. It should be out in exactly 1 hour and 16 minutes

I hope it goes to number one in the charts.

Edit: No special editions in store :'( I'll just order it online instead.

 

[PoWer2tHePeOpLE]

i should turn the light off since its bright outside

 

[nerdygirl]

Oh, neat. I just now *got* the reputation thing, because I accidentally clicked on mine. Awww, people write sweet things. You all rock.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I love my step daughter very, very much.
I'm grateful we have a relationship.
I'm grateful I'm not wacked out of my fucken mind to be able
to be there for her.

I wish somehow i can remove all of her pains and burden she's having
to carry. It fucken hurts that fucken people would hurt and rape my duaghter.

I'm grateful that she learning how to trust in people again.
I'm grateful she's talking about it so that she dosn't have to
carry all of that hurt inside of her. I know I can't fix her
I'm proud of her that she's trying and is doing the best that she
can at this moment.

I'm grateful that through it all that she's still wanting to live and love
again. I'm grateful that she choses to love me.

 

[evanescencefan91]

that's gotta be hard crow, i wish people would not hurt others

I wish the best for you and your family, you are a kind person and i hope good things will come your way to you and to others close to you

*hugs*

 

[Catalyst]

That I can't take much longer eating, while I read this site, because I have work to finish.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I was planning on having a FuckItAll Friday
Well..**** me anyway. I get to spend another day with my father
doing whatever the hell and getting the beat me down...
Three days of this crap already.
I need an ACOA meeting, a fucken shrink or a 38 specail.
I really need to get the hell away from here.
He's ******* my goals of becoming a straving musician.....

 

[evanescencefan91]

WOOOOOt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAWKS ARE NUMBER 1!!!!!!

9AND 0 BABY WOOOT!!!!

XD


this tottaly overshawdows getting laid off today,

and thankgod i get sleep in on weekdays now



it's so awesome to be a U of I freshmman this year

 

[evanescencefan91]

aww man i miss tv

i mean online tv is great but days like today when you just want to flip around watching is whatever is tolerable and haha ya just those unproductive dddays when you watch one thing and then whatever comes on after that and after that, cuz with this i gotta search and decide what i wand t watch searc h it see if they have it

oh woe is me

 

[Lawrens]

This headache needs to go away. I get it every saturday from playing sports and last the entire day, this time it lasted to sunday.

 

[Samuel]

Hope the Ortodontist is open tomorrow, ask Tegan out to lunch

 

[evanescencefan91]

thinking how much i miss having something between my fingers

sad i know

Life takes always everything just when we think it will not be be taken

i always speak too soon

when is daylight savings by the way?

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ya should i set my clock back?

 

[evanescencefan91]

how beautiful classical music is

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I'm also wondering if a psychiatrist or someone could analyze my doodles

i like doing curvy and hook sided lines the most

 

[Lawrens]

Just taking a dump for my subconscious mind over the internet.

 

[evanescencefan91]

well it a while, but i found some stuff

while those who prefer curved strokes are more flexible, imaginative and emotional.

People who are sensitive or hesitant tend to draw with short, light or sketchy lines,

gere's the link if you guys are interested

http://www.nationaldoodleday.org.uk/about/doodle_meanings.html

hmm i use to like it

but now i feel tired of being an emotional imaginative right brained person

because it seems there are so many more light fluffy people like this it doesn't feel unique

it is stereotypical to being a female


and i feel now that there is sooo much music art stories and such it is near pathetic

the left brained contributing to math and science "real" things i guess affect the world

curing diseases and such

hmm though what is a contribution to mankind something good the music that makes me feel good literature that makes me simile and feel less lonely

I once thought cool people were the people that knew all the cool bands and had the heaviest stuff on their ipod

senseless it is to go through life merely observing

to create is what we should do, although below is much of why i and many others do not

although many do sooo many cool people are in bands, i resent them for that

i am good,

but have i told you about my classmate plays guitar piano, trumpet violin, plays every video game on hard and expert ( i am such a gamer, but i am ooh so mediocre at it)

oh and ya he's Asain so i bet he can fly

i met another in drag his ****s are better than mine( his hair and everything too despite me actually straighting and spraying and styling it) he rock climbs and dances and i mean actually dances not DDR dances


and i don't really have the talent to back this persona up

i would feel proud if it said was artistic and i was a brilliant artist


i have the ambition and imagination the impulses to be artist but that means nothing as so many others do too

the images and sounds the voices stories in my mind are radiant, but it is only here they will stay perfect

if i try to bring out a scene onto paper into the physical world, my human calloused and trembling imperfect error ridden ( too many adjectives? ya see those are the issues) hands destroy it like a complete canvass with water cast upon it

and there is no more but a blotty mess

i feel ashamed and regret by the disaster in front of my eyes it prevents me from attempting to destroy another image in my mind

a waste of paper

the pure ideas destroyed by an impure reality ( the only thing I liked about that book was this theme)

poetry everyone does that every dark and dank teenagers (like I once was) filling their lines with despair and so on to make their lives more dramatic more significant

i feel so self conscious like if i tried to write a story too

it would be all dramatic and exciting in my mind but when it gets thrown down into words and the words are thrown down improperly

like amateur actors playing a Shakespearian tragedy, their voices break in the soliloquies, they can not deliver the lines with the right vibe covering their mouths with their hands to cover the giggles of their own ineptitude


another cheesy teenage epic

a watse of paper

so silly

I'm sorry for wasting your time and mine

so long I'm sorry

I have written all i feel i can at the moment ( you may cheer)

though it seems there shall always be more

the brain a perpetual thought machine

it is late i am comfy but i have homework to do

and miles to go before i sleep
and miles to go before i sleep



XP

ya just thought I'd throw that reference in

i think it fit nicely

 

[DrawingCircleCircles]

'sigh' i need a job already. this real life business outside of college is no joke. everything just out there now. boo this job recession. i feel like my talents are rotting each day when i could be using them to be making something.

tv has too many damn commercials.

60 degrees is freaking cold

gotta finish season 4 of entourage

gotta finish reading that one book.

people's accents make me giggle.

back to funemployment.

 

[evanescencefan91]

i feel your pain drawing circles i do

homework writting essays are soo painful

ps i think more people should post on this thread becuase i'm not posting like 24/7 or every moment of the day, but sometimes it seems that not a whole lot of other people regularly post here,

so when i post again after a day or two there's nothing in between so my posts look more frequent and numerous

--excuses excuses

sorry i don't want to be an egomaniac

but having an ego often makes us one


and oh crap does the next house of night book have another cliffhanger

XO

i was just reading a little review of it, waiting for mine to arrive from amazon

I've just been waiting like 5 months to find out what happens since the last cliff hanger

authors should really stop doing that

it's just a cruel and merciless way to treat their fans

i suppose they do for money evil greedy and authors and publishing compainies

was i not at a university with eating being fully dependent on having good books available they would not be getting my monnies

had i be back home i merely would have read it in the bookstore for free

also looking at all the wires and cables hanging down from my bunk, that's probably not a good environment for a person with clinical depression

and the absurdity of wearing 2 pairs at once, i was watching the newest episode of the big bang theory online and playing my guitar

my amp has headphone inputs