What are you thinking right now?

[evanescencefan91]

ugggh i finnaly finished my essay
2am I dread to see it graded

though it is late and i could get a good nights sleep

I feel i should bike and run just for a little while

though i cast it aside to avoid depression

it has uncontrollably affected my energy level and attention

though that problem was here longer,

stratera no longer does anything and I doubt that it really ever did i don't want anything more

i can finish assignments though it takes longer with bouts of procrastination


it feels good and it makes me feel productive,

i will do that then take a shower, and then i will down

and that is my favorite way to lay down

it can only be better with brand new sheets, but in a bunk, it is too much work at the moment

and i cleaned them 2 weeks ago, so it would be a waste not to keep them on longer

i'll probably then get 8 hours of sleep or so

tuesdays i don't have to get up till noon, i just have one class on tuesday so then i shall probably take a nap and i hope it will be a good day


lols i know there is no purpose or demand for these senseless ramblings but i feel compelled to nonetheless

I am sorry

 

[leftykmonahan]

A Wrinkle In Time. In 5th grade I learned the word 'stasis' from that novel and really took a shine to it.

 

[Depressedology]

things going too fast, I don't know how to catch up with them. I'm really failing college. and I feel like this's my final chance in life, it's like my life will end and I have no choice if I failed.. I can't think of anything else to do as plan B. It will really really really be the end of my life. I've always heard about people going crazy and committing suicide after failing school. I might go crazy, but I don't want to kill myself. This will affect my whole personality forever. I'm serious, I can't afford failing this time.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Nov 4th

I stood by her side. Not in front of her, not behind her.
I made a vow and committment to always love, honor and cherish her.
I'm grateful she still loves me and cares about me inspite of everything.
I'm grateful she had forgiven me for the wrongs I've done and for hurting
her. I miss being with her alot, especailly now. I miss dancing with her.
I miss her holding me. I miss waking up in the morning and seeing her beautiful face.

 

[zero]

umm... let`s see... I`m cold, I`m irritated about the things I`ve got to finish today, I`m thinking about the latest lie I discovered and ...I`m thinking not to think so much right now and better finish my work.

 

[Punisher]

My mother used to watch the movie Sholay all the time when I was a kid (it's on tv now), and the Mehbooba song would make me laugh so much

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I'll never be mature enough to hear it without thinking it's funny, and tbh I don't really want to not laugh at it

 

[evanescencefan91]

they... they ... they took away my internet

wahhhhhhhhh

real life, my life sucks crap woe i cand deal i can shove it aside,

but but i don't think i can deal without my internet DX DX D; D;

i exceded my alloted bandwidth and then *sniff* and then my back up wi fi had been disconnected

(currently in the itc) ( attempts to project my mind and thoughts directly into the online ether has so far proved to be futile )

this pain hurst so much

*cries*

D;

D;

 

[Lawrens]

Can't seem to outline my sketch without it looking goofy, it looks wrong no matter what, I sometimes question my brain whether I'm just seeing/not seeing things or I'm being picky.

 

[evanescencefan91]

i'm wondering if i have hypersomnia, im tired and need naps, i have trouble getting out of bed even with 8 hours, but the things i've looked up, my sleepyness is not as severe as it is said to be.

but then why do i need 10-12 hours of sleep to not feel tired when eveyone else only needs half as much it's bullshit

i am such a defective person, every bad gene from my mother and every bad gene of my father is what I am compsed of

The unbearbale sick evil of life is giving a pathetic creature such as myself counscious and self awareness.

 

[evanescencefan91]

I'm thinking hehe SCORE!!!

those bitches can't keep me off the internet

evfan always finds a way to get back online,

silly me it was just the solution of swapping cable jacks in the wall hehe

i feel like I've stuck it to the man

 

[Luna]

I feel so ******* alone right now...
I'm so sad it hurts so much...
I ******* wish I had someone that loved me...

 

[Lonesome Crow]

There's alway a different way to think about whatever the hell I'm thinking

 

[Regret]

Annoyed at my performance on my quizzes and tests this week.
My contacts have been on since 7:30 am, they hurt, I need to take them off and go to sleep.
Need to pick classes for next semester tomorrow, already behind a day, the balance between a manageable schedule and good professor is stressing me out.
I need a job so I can help pay bills and start proving her wrong by getting the car I've been dreaming of for years. But will it along with college take up my entire empty pointless forever alone free time?

Wondering whether I should post the account of the last year plus of my life and why I feel uncomfortable about exposing myself like so when I've got nothing left.

I miss her......

 

[Jesse]

I'm thinking this chicken sandwich and mashed potatoes are really tasty.

I wonder what that apartment looks like that the lady told me about and if it stays warm. I wonder if I should get it or wait to see if I get a job in the other city first or if I should just stay where I'm at.

 

[Punisher]

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm caramel shortcake

 

[cheaptrickfan]

I can't believe she died. A woman I've "known" for years on a message board died suddenly and quite unexpectedly last night. I'm absolutely stunned and saddened.

 

[Punisher]

I can't believe she died. A woman I've "known" for years on a message board died suddenly and quite unexpectedly last night. I'm absolutely stunned and saddened.

:O I'm sorry to hear to that.

 

[evanescencefan91]

ya I'm sorry about that cheaptrick

what happened?

was it someone from a differnet place?

---

by the way

here's a hug for regret too

i feel your pain man i feel your pain

i failed an essay and on wendsday i got a popquiz and i got an 8/50

i'm messed

but i promise to study more if you promise to keep trying

 

[Regret]

I'm sorry to hear that cheaptrickfan, when someone that's been around for years is suddenly gone......must be difficult.


And thanks evanescencefan91, although it sucks to hear you did badly.....

I actually studied, or tried to, but after what happened last saturday.....well, I knew I was going to have trouble focusing during the week. I need to pick it up though, I've only got like a month left and I need that freaking scholarship.

4 hours and I picked three classes today, two more to go.......

 

[cheaptrickfan]

Thanks, guys. We still don't know why, but she developed breathing problems very suddenly. She was only in her early 50s, not very old, and in good health.

For some reason, my forum friends have had a lot of deaths in the family lately.


Evfan, chin up, hon. Do you think a study group might help? Good luck.