Cruising the old forum I was a member on. Man, I miss that place, those people, those topics, those times, the way it made me feel. It was like that scene from Star Wars where Obi-Wan is showing Luke how to use the Force for the first time and he says, "you've taken your first step into a larger world". It really changed my mind, really made me feel hopeful, like I was discovering things, like things were picking up speed and we were going places, and maybe there were cracks in the walls and the ceilings after all and I was going to break through and fly.
But they were so far ahead of me in terms of intellectual/philosophical development, I wasn't good enough, and then life actually did get bad, and I wasn't in the mood to talk to them in the state of mind I was in cause I didn't feel like being "cool" anymore. I didn't feel like trying to be valuable to them. It all seemed silly compared to how things turned out.
Oh well, that's enough nostalgia for one day.
