day 2 without seraquil
well I don't think I feel alseep at all last night
even with the help of some tylenal pm
but i was able to quell the onset of an anxeity attack, by breathing and postive thinking
man the worst thing about naxiety or what I have it is'a ******* positive feedback loop
If i don't get enough sleep i get a panic attack, and if i have a panic attack then I can't sleep, and then I get stressed out because I can't sleep, becuase that'll mean I'm going to have trouble concentrating or even going to class the next day so then I start freaking out that I'm going to fail and be a dropout loser,
and then I also worry that since I don't get enough sleep I'm going to get ill, and then I still can't sleep and I'm going to get worse and then I get really sick
and then i die from a long and painful death of pneumonia
D; D;
mental disorders suck well I'm going to try and call student health try talking to my dad one last time, and if that doesn't work he is going to pay for my prescriptions full price, at student health pharmacy via my ubill suck it bitch
i believe he is legally required to pay for my schooling well the student health bills are part of my schooling
i really hope I can get off serquil, becuase sometimes with SSRI's people are never fully able to get off them
of course I've only been taking 25mg which is a much lower dose some people have been taking like 125 or 1200mg
but oh god did some googling
seroquil sucks. It 's an antiphsychotic and most rehabs I 've been in give it out to everyone they think may lose it (a become a threat). When they give it in the morning you can always tell cause everyone is slumped completely over in their chairs sucking their own dicks (figuratively) and droolin all over their shoes (literally). Everyone that I know that has taken it for more than a month becomes a prisoner.
Never the less I stopped taking the medication and had some weird withdrawls. I experienced body tremors and extream mood swings as well and an increased leval of agitation like when I tried to quit smoking. I DO NOT recomend Seraquil for rec. use nor do I recomend letting a doctor perscribe it to you as a sleeping aid.
I am furious with my mother by the age of ten she had me on SSRI's and then fall of 08 when I was stressed and getting anxiety/panic attacks she insited i take seraquil everyday, probably becuase she just got sick of having to deal me having anxiety attacks
seraquil is actually meant to treat people with schizophrenai or sever bipolar not generalized anxiety, I'm so mad at her for this
she's gotten my hooked and dependant on these pills and now she can't afford to pay them and my dad refuses to I can't afford them
and that brings me to a rough total of 1243 reasons why i despise my moterh
pleasw wish me luck on my test today and living being non sedated
isn't there a ramones song I wanna be sedated
I wanna be ******* sedated motherfuckers!!!
.. and I'm takling like a crazy person, sorry about that