What are you thinking right now?

[Lonelyroad]

I am thinking about life in general... and about how I'm too much of a wuss to love people. I'm kind of wondering why I'm like this and I'm also wondering why I am writing this because no one cares what I think anyway. I'm also thinking someone may respond to that to deny it but they won't because I'm adding this sentence to say that I would expect them to respond but now don't expect them to because I am saying this which will cause people to not bother to argue with me because there really isn't any point anyway. I am thinking myself in circles. It is dangerous for me to respond to these things, I think, because I don't think in logical sequences all the time. I wonder why I'm so lonely and I think it's gotten to my head because I never expected to ever really talk to anyone here, I thought I would post once or twice and be ignored like I was on every other forum I've ever been on, but people here are so kind and caring that they spare a moment to acknowledge me and it really means a lot to me, so I guess this is my way of saying thank you to everyone here... That's what I'm thinking right now.

Loneliness is not a nice thing to experience and especially not long periods of it. I feel your pain and the doubt you create in your head over it. I'm responding as I think your getting yourself I circles because you probably have so much stuff you'd love to just to chat with someone and have engaging conversations with people. I think forums would help you unclutter your brain a bit and you could try find like-minded people to at least communicate with online if not in-person. Decide what kind of people you like chatting to, people that u have common stuff to talk about but sometimes you don't even need common ground, life is the common ground. People do care, probably more than you know. Don't beat yourself up so much. I'm happy to chat about pretty much anything and I don't judge anyone on anything they do or don't do and people are who they are! If u ever need someone to chat to-bounce off a bit then just jump on here and I'm sure there's plenty of friendly ears. Peace✌

 

[TheRealCallie]

Blah blah blah, yadda yadda yadda.


Oopsy, forgot the disclaimer....this does not relate to anyone here.

 

[user 135671]

Has anybody ever watched that ' Only Connect '? what the bloody hell is that about?!?

 

[Bam111]

overslept

 

[user 135671]

Wtf is a chapatti? I didn't order a chapatti ffs!

 

[Finished]

I have some health problems that I need to invest into taking care of, but it will cost me 1/4th of my total money to correct. My living situation is on the fritz, and I'm very worried that prioritizing going to a doctor to take care of myself could result in me potentially ending up homeless in the next couple of years because of the money that I spent on the surgery that I need for my health. So I feel really trapped and really scared and I think it's one of those things that I need to just go do, and sort out the aftermath after.

Have you thought about various ways around using your money? Like fake ID, go to another state, give them fake information and fake forms. Or, go to another state, like California, and say you are homeless and sign up for ACCESS using a different name. I doubt they'll try to use your DNA from the operation and tie it in to the national DNA database. But, they might. I'm not sure how far they'll take that now.

How about Mexico or Canada maybe? Just trying to think of a way to get free healthcare like so many living off the government dime. Maybe pretend to be an illegal immigrent??? There's go to be a way.

 

[Finished]

Wtf is a chapatti? I didn't order a chapatti ffs!

Looks like just a thick flower tortilla that's been heated a little longer in the pan. Indian food. Mmmm.

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

Have you thought about various ways around using your money? Like fake ID, go to another state, give them fake information and fake forms. Or, go to another state, like California, and say you are homeless and sign up for ACCESS using a different name. I doubt they'll try to use your DNA from the operation and tie it in to the national DNA database. But, they might. I'm not sure how far they'll take that now.

How about Mexico or Canada maybe? Just trying to think of a way to get free healthcare like so many living off the government dime. Maybe pretend to be an illegal immigrent??? There's go to be a way.

I don't have a car.
Plane ticket would cost me probably about the same amount as the co-pay.
I'm sure I'll be fine, just the thought of it this morning really made me anxious.
It's been on my mind the last week and I haven't told anyone about it yet.
I've had a very tiring and very frustrating last month.
Phone broke, had to replace it. Switched service providers, effectively got locked out of both my bank account and my google account. New phone isn't working right and the new service provider is giving me the runaround, the impromptu surgery that I put off for so long that it's now a priority was just the cherry on the top. So this morning, I kind of ran out of fucks to give. I'll be fine, and in all actuality even though it'll suck trying to rectify the money situation after it'll probably suck less without the physical lethargy. I'm fortunate that my doctor isn't an *******. He might not be the most sympathetic, but most of the local doctors here are just outright grouchy. I think that comes from the conflicts that they have with the local patients though. He knows me, actually. Like from childhood. My memory is a bit shoddy, but he remembers me well enough after 20something years.

 

[Finished]

I don't have a car.
Plane ticket would cost me probably about the same amount as the co-pay.
I'm sure I'll be fine, just the thought of it this morning really made me anxious.
It's been on my mind the last week and I haven't told anyone about it yet.
I've had a very tiring and very frustrating last month.
Phone broke, had to replace it. Switched service providers, effectively got locked out of both my bank account and my google account. New phone isn't working right and the new service provider is giving me the runaround, the impromptu surgery that I put off for so long that it's now a priority was just the cherry on the top. So this morning, I kind of ran out of fucks to give. I'll be fine, and in all actuality even though it'll suck trying to rectify the money situation after it'll probably suck less without the physical lethargy. I'm fortunate that my doctor isn't an *******. He might not be the most sympathetic, but most of the local doctors here are just outright grouchy. I think that comes from the conflicts that they have with the local patients though. He knows me, actually. Like from childhood. My memory is a bit shoddy, but he remembers me well enough after 20something years.

Oh good. You're in a much better frame of mind. Having some kind of connection to a doctor is a very good thing. I have traded work for work with a couple doctors in the past. I haven't had medical insurance for about 13 - 14 years now. I pay cash as I go. It's funny that sometimes it's cheaper then the copays other people are paying with insurance.

 

[CenotaphGirl]

Im gonna smell like coconuts and pineapple

 

[user 139760]

Some people really enjoy shopping for an argument.

 

[user 135671]

The missus has been away for 4 days now and wtf I'm really missing her. For the first time I can remember I'm bored with my own company, strummin' the blues and drinking far too much whisky, This is going to get complicated

The strength of the wolf lies in the pack and the loneliness can get you in trouble.

 

[Claudia1794]

Having the anesthesia wear off in the middle of a procedure is a fear of mine.

 

[ringwood]

Having the anesthesia wear off in the middle of a procedure is a fear of mine.

Medical staff are very good at monitoring your level of sedation and adjusting accordingly. Don't worry.

 

[ringwood]

It's nice to see you back around online. You've been missed.

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

Nokia, connecting people.
Corona, disconnecting people.

 

[TheSkaFish]

The missus has been away for 4 days now and wtf I'm really missing her. For the first time I can remember I'm bored with my own company, strummin' the blues and drinking far too much whisky, This is going to get complicated

The strength of the wolf lies in the pack and the loneliness can get you in trouble.

On the bright side, at least you know she will be back.

Just have to count down the days. You'll make it!

 

[Finished]

Medical staff are very good at monitoring your level of sedation and adjusting accordingly. Don't worry.

Yeah, the modern ways are much better now:

 

[Finished]

Having the anesthesia wear off in the middle of a procedure is a fear of mine.

That's not the biggest concern to have.......

 

[Claudia1794]

Medical staff are very good at monitoring your level of sedation and adjusting accordingly. Don't worry.

I know its improbable just as I know that having an epidural lose its effects is not the same as being put to sleep. Having experienced that with a local anesthetic I tend to usually go with worst case scenario....irrational, I know. The thing is, it wasn't me having surgery, it was my son. Being that it was my baby, he's not a baby but he is my baby, I worry. I totally played it cool with him.