....But it's not what I want......
....I want to be comfortable and secure. I want to pursue my goals. I want to be left alone. At 67 I'm seeing my end around a bend ahead. I don't have TIME to give what little energy I have away.
I know why I'm miserable. I don't know why I can't be happy with what I've got.
IMO, it's a combination of things. I fall into this trap as well. I've purposely setup myself up from early on in my life. I made a long term plan and I successfully did it.
Financially I'm set. I have / will have several sources of income. I live in a nice neighborhood that is highly desirable. I've set up my house just like I want it. I have easy access to everything I need.
But, yet, I want to get the HELL out of here because so many of my neighbors are loud ********. I've been training them, which has taken much effort. But, they are only so trainable and fall back to old habits. So, I'm not happy. Actually, I'm ANGRY. If it were not for my neighbors and some other minor things I would be content.
So, I'm almost done building a trailer to hold all of my stuff. I will work on fixing up my house to sell. Then I will sell it WHEN the market comes back around. Then I will be homeless and living in my truck. HOWEVER, I will have the complete freedom that I'm currently lacking. If I don't like an area I'll just start up my truck and drive somewhere else.
BUT, I've done a lot of travelling and the amount of nice quite scenic areas with nobody in them has been really declining.
So, I sometimes sit around and think maybe I should just be happy and thankful for all that I do have. It really is a good setup. But, then I realize most of my neighbors will be retiring in the next 10 - 12 years. Then they be noisy ******** all the time.
My life clock is ticking away as well. I figure I only have about 20 good years remaining where I will enjoy travelling, hiking, exploring, etc, etc, etc. So, I better not wait much longer or I'll have to stay put.