What are you thinking right now?

[edgecrusher]

i am ******* stupid. im just going to keep letting honeysuckle pass me by. i wish my mind would just shut the fresia up and let me take a chance on something for once.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Starting finally hit me. I miss Jennifer.

Life gose on. I Current ly at the beach .
Not sure if I want live here. Thinking of going to Santa Barbara instead.
All of this moving around...Im way
out of my comfortzone plus my life
is not secruied at the very least..
Need to settle down

I miss Kmiberly every much.

 

[evanescencefan91]

*hugs lc*

ah excellent, I can get online for an hour at the library, very nice, considering most the itcs are closed during the summer

kinda sad though whenever I go for a while without being online, I get back on, and I've got like no new emails or anything kinda sad,

oh well,

I miss food,

**** poverty

 

[freedom]

i just registered today for a local talent show.

i'm a gifted singer, and i'm trying to think of a good song to sing for the audition this saturday.

i love romantic songs, like those by luther vandross and michael bolton. any good ideas?

 

[EveWasFramed]

The only person you can ever count on is yourself. To put much faith in another human being is beyond foolish. (recent life lessons)

 

[blackhole]

The only person you can ever count on is yourself. To put much faith in another human being is beyond foolish. (recent life lessons)

and yet there are those rare people who would walk through hell without batting an eyelash for a loved one.

and they often go completely unnoticed.

they move among us silently.

true character.

 

[EveWasFramed]

The only person you can ever count on is yourself. To put much faith in another human being is beyond foolish. (recent life lessons)

and yet there are those rare people who would walk through hell without batting an eyelash for a loved one.

and they often go completely unnoticed.

they move among us silently.

true character.

Yes, they always do.

 

[PoWer2tHePeOpLE]

thinking dr. phil said, ' don't invest more in a relationship than you are willing to lose'

push n pull, push n pull, push n pull...

it's just the way its got to be.

**** spider cage!

sigh...

 

[RyanEhf]

People thought I was an idiot for being so broken up over a girl I only dated for 2 months, but they don't know. I was crushing on that girl for 2 years while she was dating someone else, and thought I'd never have her. I couldn't believe it when she started showing me more attention than I was showing her. She encouraged me to open up to her, and I did. She was the first girl I told about my sexually debilitating chronic pain, and she said she didn't mind and came over to hang out in my room while I did physiotherapy. Then we'd cuddle on my bed and watch tv or movies.

With my shyness growing up, consistent rejection and physical pain, I felt (feel) like part of me was going numb inside. I couldn't get excited about the idea of sex or romance the way I used to. It was slow to start, but she sparked that part of me alive again. It reminded me of when I was in elementary, and I had a dream about a girl I had a crush on. I still remember that dream vividly, it was the most upset I've ever been in my life about a dream being over, and turning out to be just a dream. I felt like I was living inside that dream all over again, and then, I finally felt like a man.

In less than a week it went from having my dream girl to getting the cold shoulder, and seeing her give some other man his dream. Maybe she was only trying to like me. Sure, I took my sweet time getting over her, but I didn't really feel I had much of a choice. Slowly but surely she was filtered from my bloodstream. There are still traces of her. Sometimes her face will flash briefly before I swat her ghost away like a pesky moth. Getting over her may have taken me a year, but it has been said that, “it is done quickly enough if it is done well.”

Moving on…

 

[tangerinedream]

I am really tired of this messed-up sleep issue. I just can not function on day after day of only 3 - 4 hours of sleep. Last night I slept until 3 and then dozed fitfully and kept waking every 10 minutes to check the clock. It was not restful. I started the day yesterday already pretty tired; I'm starting today absolutely whipped.

I am thankful at least that my workflow is an easy one, though it'll still take all my mental efforts to proofread. I can't even expect to go to bed early and rest because that just means I'll wake even earlier and doze for 4 hours instead of 2.

I sort of think that this is related to the stress of finalizing the divorce, though if it's related to plain old life insecurities, I can't really expect anything to change until my life circumstances improve dramatically, and who the hell knows when that might be.

So anyway, to recap: I am utterly exhausted.

 

[lonelyfairy]

I hate this shyness! I really want to make some new real life friend(s), but I cant, because I'm so shy! Why I afraid of people? That they could hurt me, like everyone else are hurt? I'm so tired... I'm so tired to think what others think about me. I always think that there is something wrong with me! Maybe I'm just too different? I dont think about things that other young people usually think. I dont care about things that other young people usually cares about. I hate myself, I hope that I would never have been born!

 

[condemnedsoul666]

@lonely fairy;
It's ok to be different, I've always been 'different', If noone was different we'd all be the same, and I don't like evven half the things other people in my area do.
You seem like a very nice person to me and I'm certain when people get to know you they will like you, a lot.
Just try to remember the lyrics of that song I sent you ok?

Gotta go for a haircut now damnit!!!! Grrrr......

 

[lonelyfairy]

@lonely fairy;
It's ok to be different, I've always been 'different', If noone was different we'd all be the same, and I don't like evven half the things other people in my area do.
You seem like a very nice person to me and I'm certain when people get to know you they will like you, a lot.
Just try to remember the lyrics of that song I sent you ok?

Gotta go for a haircut now damnit!!!! Grrrr......

Ok... Aww, thank you, you're kind person too!

And that hair cut will be fine. :>

 

[condemnedsoul666]

Ok... Aww, thank you, you're kind person too!

And that hair cut will be fine. :>

Thanks All I did was speak my mind though
And the hair cut was fine! There was a new person there and he cut my hair the way i wanted better than the other person does.
And i think he had the same belt as me lol, but i didn't see it that clearly.

 

[Lawrens]

Feel like getting off my computer and do something else at 9pm, but what's there to do.. Got work for a few hours in a bit but then what?

 

[jjam]

a few things

1. so beautiful outside (PERFECT weather, bright!)
2. Dips - my new FAVORITE exercise (for triceps)
3. omgomgomgomgogmogmdofomfmfsdofmdfbfbbq! I beat Bit Trip Runner this morning!
[video=youtube]

 

[evanescencefan91]

god **** it, why are people so infuriatingly frustrating and uncooperative

oh, sad

 

[Luna]

Just when I think things are going good - lolololol - it goes bad.

The closest online friend that I have said that they wouldn't care if I disappeared.
My first true love...I am almost certain he cheated on me.

---

I really tried my best...that's all I can say.

 

[mintymint]

(((luna)))

 

[tangerinedream]

Um,fresia you, you little troll. You don't know what the fresia you're talking about, have no idea what the facts really are. You're as big a honeysuckle-stirrer as your little pal. And if you're still in contact with her, go on and pass along that message.