It hurts very deeply when the most closest and important person says bad things and laugh...
She doesn't believe in me.
She doesn't accept my weak parts. Yes, I have weak parts, I'm human being, I had a very hard life. So I cry much, because I'm so sensitive. I have feelings! I'm not perfect! She thinks that she is perfect, but no one is. I love her, she is my mother, but I'm so tired, and I see that she is tired too (maybe sad also...).
This whole situation, it takes my all energy.
I'm so tired.
I try to be strong, but it's hard!
I see that she is suffering, and I can't help her. It makes me feel so sad. Of course I want help her!
*sigh*
Life is hard, too hard...