Why would anyone expect the worst out of everything? Christ me, that is the most depressing attitude ever. Perhaps if you didn't wish it upon yourself so bloody much, it wouldn't knock at your door constantly... Sorry, but I'm glad that I stopped talking to you, even under the circumstances that it was. And I wouldn't do anything to try and contact you further than we already are, because you've taken a turn in life that's changed you for the worse - even worse than you were years ago.