What are you thinking right now?

[shells]

*hugs broken doll*

I really wish my nose would stop bleeding

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wow I can't believe how much irrelevant **** they make you know for a written drivers test, I'm planning to my driver's liscence renewed tomorrow going over the practice test, I've been driingv for about 4 years after forgeting all that ****

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Aw, well, you'll do fine

Good luck!

 

[evanescencefan91]

thanks wow there's a lot of typos in there i was typing with a band aid on my finger

thanks I've looked up some stuff online i hope i pass, lols i didn't even my liscence expired back in march of 09 till like this year

lols

 

[Badjedidude]

I feel like a grade-A *******.

At the moment I just sort of want to crawl into bed and sleep everything away for a bit.

 

[cheaptrickfan]

OMG I am sick. I am downing Zicam tabs and pushing fluids, but this sucks. All I want is to sleep.

 

[Drama]

I hope you'll feel better soon cheaptrickfan


hmm I'm thinking what if the world goes dumb in a sudden...

 

[Minus]

Mixing to much sugar and caffeine?

 

[Orthochromatic]

Random sampling of the thought stream for a few seconds - "I should get more coffee. go to gym after this cup of coffee. I am losing weight. <sucks in stomach and flexes in front of mirror at front door> oh the cat food dish is almost empty. good cat. should upgrade to Snow leopard. why are the "Weather Girls" wrong so often in San Diego? mmmmmm oatmeal. oh cr#p I am getting mad scientist eyebrows. why does she use a dirty wet spoon in the sugar jar. I need to adjust my valves and brakes this coming week. etc..."

 

[Punisher]

I don't know what to think.

 

[cheaptrickfan]

I hope you'll feel better soon cheaptrickfan

Thanks, hon.

Mixing to much sugar and caffeine?

No, more like, fever, chills, no appetite, sore throat, head congestion & flu-thing.

OMG the kids let me go back to bed for a few hours earlier, but i think I'll be in bed early tonight.

 

[evanescencefan91]

who brings a baby to the dmv honestly?

i had to wait for over an hour it was so crowded, but t turned out i actually didn't even have to take the test sweet!!

gah wish ii had known that or i would have gone to sleep at midnight

 

[evanescencefan91]

whoops there goes my rehtoric class, wasn't planning to sleep for that long

wow I am just the queen of unproductivity this week

maybe I'm still recovering from last weeks crazyness maybe it's the allergies and the allergy meds

maybe it's some of my depresssion it always get's really hard to do sttuff this time of the year and i don't know why

gah i curse myself for signing up for those extra ciricular activites, they're fun but ahh the commitment

 

[Minus]

Get well cheaptrickfan

 

[evanescencefan91]

ya I hope you feel better soon cheaptrick if you can pelase drink some orange juice aand get some sleep

aha after much googling. becuase i remember feeling like this often around this time i remember it got really bad in the spring of 07 i missed tons of school, and skipped a lot of extra ciricular activities


from USA today

"A mind-body link?

Over the past decade, a flurry of research has suggested allergic reactions cause feelings of fatigue and depression because of the release of proinflammatory cytokines, proteins released by immune cells rushing to protect an allergic person from pollen or other allergens that have entered the body, says Paul Marshall, a clinical neuropsychologist in the department of psychiatry at Hennepin County Medical Center in Minneapolis.

"It's thought that those cytokines directly affect the central nervous system, causing the release of a chemical in the brain called IL-1 beta that induces sickness behavior, such as weakness, lethargy, low mood and the inability to concentrate," Marshall says.

He says research strongly indicates that having allergies increases the likelihood of having depression twofold. "I wonder sometimes how many allergists really are aware of that."

In a study published in Psychosomatic Medicine in 2002, Marshall collaborated with allergist colleague Paul Steinberg and followed patients allergic to ragweed for a year from one allergy season, through winter when pollen counts drop and again during the following year's ragweed season.

"We saw … that behaviors associated with positive mood — enthusiasm, attentiveness, alertness — went down during ragweed season, then up during winter, then back down during the following ragweed season," Marshall says."


from http://www.raysahelian.com/cytokines.html

here's more about cytokines
"Cytokines and Depression
Clinical and experimental studies indicate that stress and depression are associated with the up-regulation of the immune system, including increased production of pro-inflammatory cytokines. When administered to patients or laboratory animals, some of these cytokines induce typical symptoms of depression. It is known that cytokines modulate brain neurotransmitters and the activity of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis, both of which are disturbed in depression"



well i guess it's nice knowing what's behind it, but man it's such a pain academically to have to deal with this **** every year around finals,

i remeber tlaking to my teacher last year about how my depression was making it hard for me to get up and get to school in april

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..god damn it somthing's gone and botched up the stupid printing system in the itc,

they said someone woud be here soon to fix it but that was over an hour ago

****


ps

sorry for the moodyness

 

[nerdygirl]

Crappity crappity crappity freaking crap! Grrr!

 

[NeverMore]

I honestly don't know if I can make it in this world, I have an inability to form lasting friendships, obvious anxiety problems, more social issues than you could shake a stick at, the motivation of coleslaw and I know nothing about the real world. I do well in classes but even there people do better than me. I can't stand out anywhere, I do research with a professor for a semester, they have been doing research for the past 2 years already and have presented their research at several conferences around the country...

These people, I call them super scientists (lol), the ones who do great in classes, have friends everywhere and are amazing outside of classes too. They seem to have unlimited energy, working a job or two, taking 18 credit hours and doing research on the side and has gone too Indonesia (or some very remote part of the world) and are amazingly enthusiastic about what they do, they're frickin amazing and its impossible to compete with them.

I know people say "don't compare yourself with others" and all that jazz but these are the people I'll be competing with for jobs, and this is a relatively small university I can only imagine the super scientists at larger universities and how many ground shaking scientific achievements they have by now....*shivers*

I commend them for being so awesome and progressing human knowledge but what happens to people like me who can't compete? I guess you never hear about us, the ones that get a college degree, attempt a masters, have a mental breakdown or two and either die or live a life of shame.

Meh, the world is an oyster and it filters out all the failures

and if you eat it raw it could give you hepatitis

*raises eyebrow*

saying that made me feel better

So here's to the perpetual underdogs!

Screw you super scientists and screw you natural selection

I don't care if I have a selection coefficient of 0.9999

I'll ride this oyster for as long as I can

 

[mintymint]

Save a spot for me on that oyster

 

[evanescencefan91]

*hugs nevermore*

gahh my roomate's like that she's going to study abroad in chili over the summer, she's already been to japan mexico and south africa,
she took 17 credit hours last semster, always gotten good grades, she functions on five hours of sleep a day not too mention the guys can't get enough of her

i mean she's awesome nice and a good roomate, but gah there should be a limit on their awesomeness
stupid over achievers and everything


gah i can't believe i'm too depressed to go to sleeo and in the morning I'll probably be too depressed and tired too get up, but i missed class today and yesterday,

these allgeries and the lethargia are making everything so much harder, i feel like i can't escape it

 

[TheWickedOne]

Good thing I'm not flying today because I can't go more than 5 minutes without having to blow my nose, and this sinus medication is working slloooooooowwwwwwllllllyyyyyyyyyyyy.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

So I got an-mail from a friend with a link to some website about reality, truth, the meaning of life and all that good ****.
She means well..she really dose. But she irratated the living **** out of me. Always aynalizing ****. this way, that way...blah..blah
So i read the article...it irratated the living **** out of me even more. This way..that way..blahh..blahh..blahhh
poor girl...i hate being kept in the friendzone myself, but i just ain't feeling it with her.
The feelings i get is wanting to slit my wrist if I hang with her for more than an hour.

 

[cheaptrickfan]

Oh my goodness, this Zicam stuff really works at reducing the length of a cold. Now I have never used the nasal spray - I've heard some stories about people losing their sense of smell, but these RapidMelt lozenges are incredibly effective.

I feel worlds better than I did yesterday.