What are you thinking right now?

[Finished]

I'm going to be making pancakes tomorrow morning! Mmmmmm.

 

[ahsatan]

hope to get more sleep tonight

 

[Finished]

I just finished a nice long hot shower. I'm thinking that I'm feel soooo relaxed. 

 

[Just Games]

...

 

[Cucuboth]

That is was a very bad idea to call my family and try and talk to them. To think that it would be different to any other time. They were more annoyed at being reminded that I exist. And I am tired of feeling like I should be apologising for that.

They don’t want me. Nobody does. Sometimes you don’t need to hear the words to know that. Sometimes silence says it so much louder.

 

[ahsatan]

terrible sleep

 

[Just Games]

Sorry about that Natasha hope you sleep better tonight .

Ah Sunday lunch at last took forever :club:

 

[Finished]

That is was a very bad idea to call my family and try and talk to them. To think that it would be different to any other time. They were more annoyed at being reminded that I exist. And I am tired of feeling like I should be apologising for that.

They don’t want me. Nobody does. Sometimes you don’t need to hear the words to know that. Sometimes silence says it so much louder.

**** them! You have no reason to apologize. The part of my family that I cared about have all passed away. The ones remaining are like what you are describing. They've always looked down on me, ridiculed me, called me a loser, and treated me like ****. So, I wrote them all off. I have no family period. It was a little lonely at first. But, after I accepted that I have no family I was fine with it. I no longer have to listen to their BS and them putting me down.

If nobody wants you then **** them too! I've kind of accepted that as well for myself. But, I made a decision to stop interacting with people in the real world or even trying to make connections. So, technically I'm still controlling the situation because surely there are some people out there that want me and / or you somewhere.

Oh that's funny. I just realized today is Easter. It's almost over too. Ha! ha! It was just another day that I enjoyed all by myself. I didn't have to deal with any family BS either. Nice!

 

[Cucuboth]

That is was a very bad idea to call my family and try and talk to them. To think that it would be different to any other time. They were more annoyed at being reminded that I exist. And I am tired of feeling like I should be apologising for that.

They don’t want me. Nobody does. Sometimes you don’t need to hear the words to know that. Sometimes silence says it so much louder.

**** them! You have no reason to apologize. The part of my family that I cared about have all passed away. The ones remaining are like what you are describing. They've always looked down on me, ridiculed me, called me a loser, and treated me like ****. So, I wrote them all off. I have no family period. It was a little lonely at first. But, after I accepted that I have no family I was fine with it. I no longer have to listen to their BS and them putting me down.

If nobody wants you then **** them too! I've kind of accepted that as well for myself. But, I made a decision to stop interacting with people in the real world or even trying to make connections. So, technically I'm still controlling the situation because surely there are some people out there that want me and / or you somewhere.

Oh that's funny. I just realized today is Easter. It's almost over too. Ha! ha! It was just another day that I enjoyed all by myself. I didn't have to deal with any family BS either. Nice!

Ha. Yeah, I almost forgot it was Easter as well. Not that I celebrate it or anything, it is usually just 2 public holidays. But the last 2 weeks have been a holiday, and don’t know when work will re-open, so, this is kind of the new normal now. 

I have pretty much cut them out. Didn’t see or hear from them last Christmas, even though they live about 5 minutes away. Still, sometimes feels like I should try to .. I don’t know, reconnect with them. But they make it clear that they don’t want to. 

Wish there was someone, somewhere ... but it doesn’t seem like there is. And for me, just being by myself, just wanting my own company, I’ve done that most of my life already.

 

[ahsatan]

Sorry about that Natasha hope you sleep better tonight .

Ah Sunday lunch at last took forever :club:

Thanks

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That is was a very bad idea to call my family and try and talk to them. To think that it would be different to any other time. They were more annoyed at being reminded that I exist. And I am tired of feeling like I should be apologising for that.

They don’t want me. Nobody does. Sometimes you don’t need to hear the words to know that. Sometimes silence says it so much louder.

Lots of people i think have a dysfunctional family sadly.

 

[Finished]

I'm thinking I'm glad that I'm able to cut my own hair since all the barber shops are closed. It feels nice to get the hair off my ears. Ha! ha!

 

[Cucuboth]

Sorry about that Natasha hope you sleep better tonight .

Ah Sunday lunch at last took forever :club:

Thanks

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That is was a very bad idea to call my family and try and talk to them. To think that it would be different to any other time. They were more annoyed at being reminded that I exist. And I am tired of feeling like I should be apologising for that.

They don’t want me. Nobody does. Sometimes you don’t need to hear the words to know that. Sometimes silence says it so much louder.

Lots of people i think have a dysfunctional family sadly.

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I guess. Just that most people that know, or that I tell, seem to react with a kinda disgust. Even therapists. Guess it is because most people have at least someone .. a friend or a partner .. in their lives. I don’t know. Maybe it is my fault everything is ****** up.

 

[ahsatan]

Most people suck sadly. I think quite a few have no one in their life and are very lonely.I doubt it's ur fault everything is ****** up.

 

[LostintheBardo]

Why do so many people claim to be open minded when they aren't?

 

[Cucuboth]

Why do so many people claim to be open minded when they aren't?

Because most people will just say whatever they think is the popular thing to say, whatever they think most people want to hear. Just like a herd of sheep really.

 

[MissBehave]

Why do so many people claim to be open minded when they aren't?

Because most people will just say whatever they think is the popular thing to say, whatever they think most people want to hear. Just like a herd of sheep really.

People acting like that is as interesting as a bag of flour. Plain, white and dry.

 

[LostintheBardo]

Why do so many people claim to be open minded when they aren't?

Because most people will just say whatever they think is the popular thing to say, whatever they think most people want to hear. Just like a herd of sheep really.

People acting like that is as interesting as a bag of flour. Plain, white and dry.

I don't just mean it in that way though, like people may say they are open minded to certain ideas outside of the way they view the world but it becomes apparent real fast that they definitely aren't and they will just ignore any evidence in favour of the idea in question.

 

[ladyforsaken]

Why does it keep happening to me?

 

[Finished]

Why do so many people claim to be open minded when they aren't?

Because most people will just say whatever they think is the popular thing to say, whatever they think most people want to hear. Just like a herd of sheep really.

People acting like that is as interesting as a bag of flour. Plain, white and dry.

I don't just mean it in that way though, like people may say they are open minded to certain ideas outside of the way they view the world but it becomes apparent real fast that they definitely aren't and they will just ignore any evidence in favour of the idea in question.

Sounds like you are trying to come out of a closet. I'm just not sure which one though. Ha! Ha!

 

[Just Games]

I really miss work.