Yes, I don't like my life very much. There have been a few bright spots over the years, but there's been a lot of frustration and despair too.
The main thing is, I feel like I wasn't dealt enough of anything, to be able to make much of a life for myself, and therefore I'm stuck in misery. I hate the way my life is, I've always wanted to escape. But I'm afraid I can't. That's been the story of my whole life, basically. I don't want to just "accept" this lousy life being as good as it's going to get for me, because it sucks. If I knew it was never going to get better, I'd just give up on life and drink, and maybe exercise enough to keep the fat off, if I feel like there's even a point, and that would be my life, and I'd hate it. But I'm afraid I don't have enough potential/natural ability, or raw intelligence and imagination and vision, to do anything or come up with anything that would allow me to create a better life for myself.
If I could be anyone? I'd want to be someone with enough potential to actually succeed, to actually get somewhere at something. I'd want to be someone physically strong, intelligent, creative/imaginative, and attractive. I want to be someone who can come up with interesting, high-quality ideas, and actually get good enough at something to do something cool with my own life, and to get someone that I'm interested in, interested in me.