Boyfriend keeps acting like things are fine, saying that he loves me deeply and being "affectionate" like any sweet boyfriend could be but I feel like crap because his actions don't speak "I love you" to me. I don't feel like he involves me in his life, he's been thinking of breaking up with me, saying I make him miserable, having fun with his friends going on a trip. He just got back from Belgium and he didn't even tell me that he was planning on going to Miami IN 2 DAYS but the thing got cancelled but he's going to Miami for work anyway. He had promised to visit me but it seems unlikely, he definitely doesn't want to spend any time with me.. He just doesn't include me in anything, doesn't tell me anything, it's like he's happy being single and he's just dragging me along for the "cuddles" and "I love you's" but I feel like he doesn't actually want me in his life. I mean, it's like he's happy single and happy with his friends and family and his freedom but he still wants to keep me around for the "I love you's" but other than that, I feel left out, I feel rejected, I feel unwanted. While he's having fun taking trips to Belgium and Miami and just living his life to the fullest, I'm by myself, **** alone. I can imagine that if we ever live together, if I ever move out to his country, I'll probably be stuck at home while he travels the world with his friends or his family. It's like he doesn't want me around. I feel like honeysuckle because he always says,"I love you" but his actions don't really show it.
Then there's no way to even talk or show him how I'm feeling because he'll just use it as an excuse to break up with me, give him more reason to break up. *sigh*
*hugs* *hands over some hot chocolate and marshmallows*
