I feel silly.
Yesterday after my mom started yelling these awful things, I left. I packed a few things and left. I started walking to nowhere in particular, when after a while my boyfriend rang me and listened to me crying for 30 minutes when he decided to come pick me up (it had started raining)
I cried. He eventually started crying because I was crying. I felt stupid and selfish, but I really couldn't stay in the house anymore. He held me all evening as I continued crying and for the first time in a very long time, I didn't feel lonely.
Yet, I feel so stupid. Who the hell walks out in the rain walking to nowhere?! Only me, certified idiot.