Borderline sucks. I wished I could be normal. I feel very lonely and abandoned due to my disease and dependency on what is called the fav person. Glad I can call the caretakers, I drove myself into another crises today.
I ask myself, are ppl, who don't have BPD, able to understand this feelings. The abscence of a fav person feels like the worst rejection ever and pulls me into self-doubts, fear and sadness and I need to fight self-harm and suicidal thoughts. When am I going to be kind of normal? I have only one choice, because I decided to not kill myself, means, to live with BPD and to face it. It's a ride with the devil.
I ask myself, are ppl, who don't have BPD, able to understand this feelings. The abscence of a fav person feels like the worst rejection ever and pulls me into self-doubts, fear and sadness and I need to fight self-harm and suicidal thoughts. When am I going to be kind of normal? I have only one choice, because I decided to not kill myself, means, to live with BPD and to face it. It's a ride with the devil.