What are you thinking right now?

[TheSkaFish]

The more I learn about some individual people and some types of people, the more I understand why I don't get along with them. I can see that my personality, and life philosophy/worldview/beliefs/values, what I think and feel, is completely different and opposed. Our personalities and beliefs aren't just in disagreement, but are offensive to each other. Some people, when mixed with my personality and beliefs, are like matches and gasoline, it's just going to cause an explosion. There have been people from time to time in my life that they way they are and the way they think just bothers me so much, that I'm not interested in understanding them, finding common ground, compromising, or making peace.
And that's just the way it is.

It also helps me understand how we're living in an increasingly polarized world.


For the record, I'm talking about people that are very pro-social hierarchy, pro-survival of the fittest, pro-some people are better than others, things like that - the "bootstraps" crowd.

I'm very much not that way. I'm more into curiosity than competition. I think their way is how things used to be, that it doesn't have to be like that anymore and we should have been able to evolve out of it by now. I think that's the way backwards, not forwards.

 

[user15010]

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[user15010]

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[Finished]

The damn spammers almost got me today. I was busy and they called my phone 5 times. I don't answer it ever because of spammers.

But, then I got a text from my bank saying a purchase over $800 was made on my debit card. I glanced as I was driving and it looked right. It got me all nervous.

BUT, I still waited the 1.5 hours until I could get home and check into it before responding. Then I noticed they mispelled my Bank name, the phone number was slightly off, and the text link was incorrectly spell. But, it all was very close and the timing was perfect.

Damn it!!!!! Stop doing that to people!!!!

 

[Rohini]

The damn spammers almost got me today. I was busy and they called my phone 5 times. I don't answer it ever because of spammers.

But, then I got a text from my bank saying a purchase over $800 was made on my debit card. I glanced as I was driving and it looked right. It got me all nervous.

BUT, I still waited the 1.5 hours until I could get home and check into it before responding. Then I noticed they mispelled my Bank name, the phone number was slightly off, and the text link was incorrectly spell. But, it all was very close and the timing was perfect.

Damn it!!!!! Stop doing that to people!!!!

You are lucky it was fake.
Similar thing happened to me last year.

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

Why does Lawn & Garden furniture have so much wrapping and packaging??
It's not going to explode...

 

[Claudia1794]

Why does Lawn & Garden furniture have so much wrapping and packaging??
It's not going to explode...

If its that woven **** its because it tears up easily...if its the metal its because it dings up easily. Sorry, I couldn't help myself. I worked at a Pier 1 about 20 years ago and the packaging on that **** was ridiculous.

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

If its that woven **** its because it tears up easily...if its the metal its because it dings up easily. Sorry, I couldn't help myself. I worked at a Pier 1 about 20 years ago and the packaging on that **** was ridiculous.

**** takes longer to unpack than it does to assemble. lol.

 

[ardour]

Sometimes I wonder if I'd have been better off sticking to video games, alcohol and other distractions. For someone at this point in life self improvement can worsen depression by drawing attention to everything that's already been missed.

What has this actually got me other than putting off of chronic health conditions for a few more years. Plenty more time to look back with regrets I guess while I'm surrounded by the young people. There's a world of difference between early 30s and 40s.

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

Sometimes I wonder if I'd have been better off sticking to video games, alcohol and other distractions. For someone at this point in life self improvement can worsen depression by drawing attention to everything that's already been missed.

What has this actually got me other than putting off of chronic health conditions for a few more years. Plenty more time to look back with regrets I guess while I'm surrounded by the young people. There's a world of difference between early 30s and 40s.

You're not a machine, dude. No man is.
That's honestly probably the hardest part about being a man, if I'm totally honest.
World wants you to be a machine on an island standing alone and operating functionally.
Damn near nobody can pull it off, everybody goes through rough patches of trying to find meaning in the meaninglessness of things in life. It can leave us feeling jaded, which is why I don't like the idea of hope, because hope isn't definitive enough. It's more of a maybe than a direct answer.

As a recovered alcoholic I can say that I've finally gotten to where I can have an off weekend where I wanna drink but now I can control it and I can go 3 - 6 months without so much as a single beer, which is a big turnaround from 10 years ago where I was killing 2 liters of the strongest I could get in my state in 2 days time by myself after a 60 hour work week. I don't have the shakes anymore, I'm not wrecking my bank account over the bottle, but I will admit that it isn't fun anymore and the hangovers definitely kick my *** harder than they did in my 20s.

Definitely take a break and some time off of your focuses. Just don't drink.
Gaming can be therapeutic, gives you something to apply your thinking and focus to.
Kind of like carpentry or other such traditional crafting, it's equally mechanical in conception.
But it's nicer to the body in that you're not getting your *** kicked physically as much by it.
Unless of course you're doing some of that 3D gaming stuff.

The trouble with depression is that sucks the life, joy and pleasure out of everything in life, making it difficult to focus on anything. It's also kind of a sneakysonofabitch in that I don't know it's there until I put the pieces together and realize that's why I'm not enjoying my multiple outlets like I normally do and so once I realize that's what the issue is, then I have to deal with it in kind of a bass-ackwards kind of a way and do the exact opposite of what I normally do until it passes. Granted, I'm unmedicated, so that's why.

 

[CenotaphGirl]

You're not a machine, dude. No man is.
That's honestly probably the hardest part about being a man, if I'm totally honest.
World wants you to be a machine on an island standing alone and operating functionally.
Damn near nobody can pull it off, everybody goes through rough patches of trying to find meaning in the meaninglessness of things in life. It can leave us feeling jaded, which is why I don't like the idea of hope, because hope isn't definitive enough. It's more of a maybe than a direct answer.

As a recovered alcoholic I can say that I've finally gotten to where I can have an off weekend where I wanna drink but now I can control it and I can go 3 - 6 months without so much as a single beer, which is a big turnaround from 10 years ago where I was killing 2 liters of the strongest I could get in my state in 2 days time by myself after a 60 hour work week. I don't have the shakes anymore, I'm not wrecking my bank account over the bottle, but I will admit that it isn't fun anymore and the hangovers definitely kick my *** harder than they did in my 20s.

Definitely take a break and some time off of your focuses. Just don't drink.
Gaming can be therapeutic, gives you something to apply your thinking and focus to.
Kind of like carpentry or other such traditional crafting, it's equally mechanical in conception.
But it's nicer to the body in that you're not getting your *** kicked physically as much by it.
Unless of course you're doing some of that 3D gaming stuff.

The trouble with depression is that sucks the life, joy and pleasure out of everything in life, making it difficult to focus on anything. It's also kind of a sneakysonofabitch in that I don't know it's there until I put the pieces together and realize that's why I'm not enjoying my multiple outlets like I normally do and so once I realize that's what the issue is, then I have to deal with it in kind of a bass-ackwards kind of a way and do the exact opposite of what I normally do until it passes. Granted, I'm unmedicated, so that's why.

Wish I knew what it was like to be a man, looks sooo fun watching you all on Mars from planet Venus.

No periods
No childbirth
No one calling you sluts
No random nipple pains
No one trying to sneak a peek up your skirts
Can walk around topless in peace
If you abandon your kids its simply “as expected”

I’m sure its just a grass is greener thing, but its like can you guys have the periods please? Like i’ll swap that with whatever you want

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

Wish I knew what it was like to be a man, looks sooo fun watching you all on Mars from planet Venus.

No periods
No childbirth
No one calling you sluts
No random nipple pains
No one trying to sneak a peek up your skirts
Can walk around topless in peace
If you abandon your kids its simply “as expected”

I’m sure its just a grass is greener thing, but its like can you guys have the periods please? Like i’ll swap that with whatever you want

Life is just really kicking your *** right now, huh?
I hope you find peace, Ceno.

You'd think that if we can put a satellite into space and map the entire observable universe that we'd have come up with a way to surgically correct the menstrual cycle by now. I mean, CRISPR exists, which is genetic engineering, and all this other advanced stuff.

Every time I hear "man up" it now just calls my morbid sense of humor out of the dark.
Somebody told Ed Gein to "man up" once, and he was just like:

"k"



Now the fact that the victim was actually and elderly woman is kind of besides the point of the joke, but I mean if you want to be anatomically correct in the joke I guess you could say that he always held his women in high regard? I am 100% going to Hell.

 

[CenotaphGirl]

Life is just really kicking your *** right now, huh?
I hope you find peace, Ceno.

You'd think that if we can put a satellite into space and map the entire observable universe that we'd have come up with a way to surgically correct the menstrual cycle by now. I mean, CRISPR exists, which is genetic engineering, and all this other advanced stuff.

Every time I hear "man up" it now just calls my morbid sense of humor out of the dark.
Somebody told Ed Gein to "man up" once, and he was just like:

"k"



Now the fact that the victim was actually and elderly woman is kind of besides the point of the joke, but I mean if you want to be anatomically correct in the joke I guess you could say that he always held his women in high regard? I am 100% going to Hell.

Yeps *** is officially kicked by life and loool omgg that pic scared me

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

Yeps *** is officially kicked by life

You just need like, a vacation.
Book a hotel room for a weekend.
Maybe a sugar studio appointment, or a spa appointment.
Try to relax some. Brain off, Rest on.

and loool omgg that pic scared me

Don't worry, it's a 60+year old CSI photo, that ****'s long dead (no pun intended) as well as Gein.
That's just me though, I'm quirky with creepyness like that.
I'm less upskirt creepy, more metalhead goth kid creepy.
Serial killer jokes are kind of a running schtick in my subculture.
Mostly because they're totally ridiculous and humor helps with the extremities of the damnations in life we suffer as humans.
**** situation? Gotta laugh at it. Because if we didn't we'd cry.

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

"BAP" is my favorite onomatopoeia.

 

[user 135671]

"BAP" is my favorite onomatopoeia.

Mines is Twang, not gonna lie I had to google onomatopoeia

 

[Claudia1794]

Mines is Twang, not gonna lie I had to google onomatopoeia

They teach it in kindergarten now...the word itself. So cute hearing 20 5 year olds singsong onomatopeia. I just remember being told to not eat the glue in kindergarten.

 

[TheSkaFish]

No one calling you sluts

Maybe not, but it's kind of the opposite - you get called a loser if you don't get a girlfriend, or if you're not good at anything or strong at anything. And if you're not tough and macho, if you're not traditionally masculine, you get called variations of "gay", sissy, p-you-know-what. At least up until recently.

If you abandon your kids its simply “as expected”

I don't think anyone really expects that. There's a lot of shaming for "deadbeat dads", and for good reason.
Of course, it doesn't stop some people from doing that anyway, though.

 

[CenotaphGirl]

Maybe not, but it's kind of the opposite - you get called a loser if you don't get a girlfriend, or if you're not good at anything or strong at anything. And if you're not tough and macho, if you're not traditionally masculine, you get called variations of "gay", sissy, p-you-know-what. At least up until recently.



I don't think anyone really expects that. There's a lot of shaming for "deadbeat dads", and for good reason.
Of course, it doesn't stop some people from doing that anyway, though.

Omg Ska when I was a virgin people called me frigid, boring, was sooo much pressure. Guys get super mad at you if you arent ready its like it just sucks

And I mean its more expected than if a woman was to abandon her kids

But im sure its hard being a guy, just cant help watch you all with a hint of envy

 

[TheSkaFish]

Omg Ska when I was a virgin people called me frigid, boring, was sooo much pressure. Guys get super mad at you if you arent ready its like it just sucks

And I mean its more expected than if a woman was to abandon her kids

But im sure its hard being a guy, just cant help watch you all with a hint of envy

That sounds really mean that they said those things. And about the whole "not being ready" thing, I don't see why a guy can't just give it some time. Chances are they aren't really ready either, they just might be denying it in an attempt to be "cool" and macho, like I was saying, because you don't want to be a "loser"/"gay"/"a *****"/etc.
But if you're just not ready, it's like, you're not rejecting them, they just need to give you some time - which if they really respect you and like/care about you as a person, they should be willing to do.

With women it's like, you don't want to give it away too easily - otherwise that says you're "low value", if you don't make a guy prove himself through being strong enough for you.
With guys it's like, you want to get it as quickly as possible - otherwise THAT says you're "low value", too weak and powerless and ineffectual to get a woman to give you what you want, or just to get what you want from life/the world in general.
These "value" power games are so insulting to everyone, the social hierarchy is f'ed up, I wish we could evolve out of it and it would go away and we could just be any way we wanted to.